P.S. I absolutely love how this “new” character in Questionable Content is named Amanda, and how she’s a lesbian. Love it, love it, love it.

Dusk, the day after.

I can’t say much since I’m supposed to be cleaning, so I’ll leave this short and swt.

- Went to a museum in Oregon yesterday, the only reason why we really went was because of the planetarium there, but we arrived early and the museum doesn’t readmit people, so we were there with two hours to kill. Boring, really, but the planetarium was cool.

- Debbie’s sleeping over today. I have no clue as to what we’re going to do, because I suck being a hostess, as I’ve said plenty of times before.

- went to maze today with my brother; saw Lorren/Kendra. It was really boring being in that freaking line. And then I remembered that I will have to go through this again on Friday. Yaaaaah. D:

Peace out.

Napoleon’s tailor dressed him in a giant hat and funny platform shoes

…”Saying anyone can be a hero you just got to force people to look up to you.”

I’m going out today. I get the new Scientific American Mind! I’ve never hung out with Debbie before, and I have to admit, I’m pretty darned excited. Don’t understand why, though, since all we are doing is expressing the same kind of consumerism corporate America has thrust upon us during our childhood. I need to stop being so introspective.

Love is a risk, we always get hit out of nowhere

… “This story’s old but it goes on and on until we disappear. Call me and let me taste the salt you breathe while you were underneath… I spoke the words but never gave a thought to what they all could mean. I know that this is what you want- a funeral keeps both of us apart, you know that you are not alone- I need you like water in my lungs.”

“Play Crack The Sky” is such a depressing song.

I’m going out today recreationally for the first time in months. It’s exciting to a degree. I wish I could get this project over with, though, because it’s really ruining liiiiiife. D:

Today, we clean- and we mean it. We have found hobo spiders in our house, so we’ve transformed into a clean up brigade in an attempt to get them out. These are some bitching spiders, I’ll tell you.

I get to pick up my books from the library at last, but it’s another distraction. I think we are going to Ikea tomorrow, which we need! I need stuff to organize my room.

They’re scared that we know

… “All the crimes they’ll commit, and who they’ll kiss before they get home. I will lie awake and lie for fun and fake the way I hold you, let you fall for every empty word I say.”

I cannot come up with a great adjective to fulfill this day. Overall, I cannot think about anything and complete the thought. So it’s not necessarily thinking, it’s just randomness.

I GOT HOME AND SIGNED CDS AWAIT! Oh, that made my day. Except for the fact that there are five dudes in the band. And only four signatures were there. Uh. AND Freethought Today came. I got some spam, too. Spam isn’t that bad. I mean something now. I just feel like I wasted five seconds of excitement. D:

Aw, fuck it. I don’t feel like writing. I have a project to do, but I don’t want to do it at all. It’s due on Monday and I want to get it out of the way right now, so I can stop having it on my mind.

Broken glass on the porcelain

… “Is this what you imagine? We’ll forget what we used to say, and our lives won’t mean anything, hold me close as we drift away, yeah, it’s just as it should be!”

We ran and ran and ran. Swedish style. D:

I’m thinking of posting all of the b-sides and rarities that I have on here. I just don’t know how to do a direct download link. And I’m not going to re-up all of my stuff every two weeks. No fucking way.

But yeah. I have little else to write about today. Read my archives, because they are so much better than the stuff I came up with today :(

February, Valentines Day

… “Did my best to avoid the red clichés. So you dumped me on the subway on my way to work at 9 in the morning. Everybody else is holding bouquets, now I’m holding my face in the basement, scratching away for any trace of affection you will leave. Falling victim to the publics prey.”

Tomorrow is summer school. Not enthused at all. But whatever. The sooner the beginning comes, the sooner the end comes. And on that lovely note, my birthday is in two days. How I hope so much I will not end up like Shakespeare; seeing summer school may do me in

We’re going to see the new Harry Potter movie today- for real this time. It is very warm today, moreso than the rest of the days this week, so maybe that is what motivated my brother to ask my mom. We’re leaving in about half an hour, so I may as well get ready.

_______ edit.

We went to see the movie and I liked it. It’s just that they totally cut out the whole “Weasley is our king!” which was my favorite part. And they shortened the Dumbledore-Harry speech dramatcially. And tons more that I really disliked, but whatever.  *whisper* That 1408 movie was still better.

Summer school is tomorrow and it turns out that Cody’s not doing it with us. Damn, we needed another atheist to combat. *just kidding* but yeah, it’s a real bummer because he’s interesting now!

I feel very exhausted right now, and I have been for the last couple of days, and I had no idea why. I’ve done nothing. My vision is getting substantially worse as well, and that worries me.

I’m jealous of headlights

… “because they are all that cling to you. I’ll pray that our shoes melt in the pavement. We step back slowly and I’ll take the long way home.”

Oh, today’s gonna suck. It’s logical after you’ve been outside your home for the first time in two weeks and enjoyed it. Lame.

Straight from the pages into memories that hang around

…” I can’t believe that there is nowhere you can go.”

Quick recap of the day:
- The decodaquote from the newspaper is now my obsession and today I could not figure it out. It was eating away at my soul.
- I stabbed myself in the hand with a pencil and it drew blood. Nobody else was around so I wept.
- Study hall periods are lame when the teachers actually care.
- I’m really getting tired of having to walk on eggshells whenever she is around.
- I made lemon curd.

Why leave when you claim it’s love?

… “Why stay when you’re not the only one?”

I got my ReadyMade magazine today. Swt. Did not attempt to do makeup much today. Wore my glasses. Spring is finally here. The sun is coming out. Cooking tomorrow in food science. Tired of research. Need sleep. Need to get cheered up. He annoys me so much. I can’t stand it anymore.

This isn’t just good bye..

… “This is ‘I can’t stand you’.. Talk is cheap and my mouth is filled with blood from trying not to speak.. So find a better excuse and someone to believe you.”

Going to St. Vinnie’s today. I woke up at eleven today, as well. Amazing. And my eyes still really hurt. It’s either out of exhaustion or my retina is being stimulated, but still. They feel a bit sore. Wah. Portland is tomorrow. Which’ll be sweet to some degree. We’re going to the mall there too, and maybe we’ll drive along the coast.

Take my words the way I’m taking yours

… “Listen once and listen close to me, even our heart transplant won’t show you how I feel.. Those sly jokes and things we know are the farthest thing from my mind.”

I do not get how people say that old Punchline stuff is worse than the new stuff. I’d say they are equally catchy. o.O

Tomorrow is actually Christmas Eve. That’s so weird. It doesn’t really feel like Christmas either. I do not feel any of that childish anticipation. I remember that I could not sleep the night before Christmas because I was so excited.

There’s so much more that I wanted and..

… “There’s so much more that I needed, and time keeps moving on and on and on, soon we’ll all be gone. Let’s take some time to talk this over, you’re out of line… We can’t depend on your excuses because in the end, it’s ** useless.”

Today was definitely a Monday. I was falling asleep in all of my classes, actually.

We went to Joann’s after school today so I got some crafting supplies, which is very awesome. I spent like ten dollars. I always end up spending that much. I finally bought textile medium, and some new acrylics. I can’t wait to start stencilling! I bought some new yarn, for my holiday knits.. It’ll be so cool. I also bought some new jumprings and pin backs because of my Christmas presents.

I now have to construct the songs for my mix CD! oooh.. It can have only like nineteen songs, so I’m thinking..
1. The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows- BN
2. Baby Blue- TEN
3. Q- Cartel
4. A Letter To Elise- The Cure
5. The First Single- The Format
6. Band Sluts [yes! I finally downloaded TSL's geffen demo! =D I am totally in love with this band all over again!]- TSL
7. Ruthless- SoCo
8. Gravity- John Mayer
9. 3000 Miles- Valencia
10. The Days Go By Oh So Slow- NOY [I'm not sure here]
11. Sadie - Alkaline Trio
12. Put You On- FYS
13. Capital H - MCS
14. Pin Your Wings- Copeland [not sure here.. Maybe it'll be No One Really Wins.. Maybe neither, because In Motion is my least favorite record- Beneath the Medicine Tree is so much more colorful!]
15. Little- SoCo [only because it's my favorite song right now..]
16. Lonely For Her -Jack’s [only because it's a b-side that you can't really hear anywhere else]
17. I Won’t Be Home For Christmas - Blink [only because it's the best christmas song..]
18. Surprise Surprise- TSL

Awesome! Now that I’ve written it down, I can go burn it. Very cool.

We can go so far, see other places..

… “And other people, I don’t know about. So breathe in deep, let it out slow, and then you’ll see, you’re all alone again.”

Four five six periods today = amazingly dull. Mostly because I only saw him once, and talked to him for that much.

I really like math class. Because Laurie and Lorren have our little girl group. It’s awesome. We have so much fun in that class!

At least we get out at 10:30. I have tons of time to do absolutely nothing. It feels like those days when I have an orthodontist appointment in the morning, because I get to stay home XD

Haha! If you don’t get it, the guy was trying to purchase The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me, the new Brand New Record. Now go check that link again XD

Err.. All in all, not a bad day, I’d just say it was boring. We had a sub in fourth, and we took notes the whole time. We have a new thing to do- pick an animal that the native americans carved on totem poles that closely resemble you. Seriously- do you want me to put eyeliner on that freaking salmon carving and call it a day?! One of the stupidest assignments I’ve ever had.

The world depresses me.

The first star I see..

… “May not be, a star.. Can you still feel the butterflies? Can you still hear the last goodnight? Close your eyes and believe wherever you are, an angel for me.”

When you are tired on a Saturday, honestly, you really know something’s wrong.

I woke up this morning and started homework. Again. I finished a project that is due on Tuesday, but I still have another one that I’m supposed to be “mostly done by the end of the three day weekend”. Freaking ridiculous. For the same class too.
But besides that, there’s really nothing else. I just really hate projects.

Err.
I’ve been feeling incredibly crafty lately, and yet I have no clue as to what I should make. Which is the stupidest feeling in the world, I tell you.

Everyone’s been so sad lately. I want to make everyone happy. Even though it is wrong to assume such a position, I’d still like to. I’m thinking of making something for some of my friends. Everyone likes surprises. Surprises make people happy. If only I could think of something.

“… And she says to herself just to get through it, “If I don’t let myself be happy then when? If not now, when?”
… Even though I want to make other people happy. I’m not happy. Ironic. At least not right now.

Edit:

I am pretty bored. So I guess I’ll write more.

This morning [before I did homework], I watched twenty twenty, it was about peeping toms. Jesus. It’s amazing how dirty people are. There was this story about this woman and her daughter whose neighbor stuck a camera in a tree so he could watch her. They were also talking about people who look up other people’s skirts. I couldn’t imagine that happening to me. It really makes me doubt people.

… Gosh. The people at twenty twenty actively work to make you scared. And the people at Dateline.

Don’t you think I wished that I could stay?

It’s 11:11.
“I always catch the clock, it’s 11:11, now you want to talk.”
I feel so smart how I made that connection!

I woke up at around eight thirty, and watched Back To The Future Part Two. I would have to say that Part Two is my favorite in the whole series. I just love how they looked into it so much, that they had their old selves from Part One!
.. Of course, I’m going to have to wait until Part Three comes out on TV again. I’ve seen part three already, I wasn’t impressed with it- but I wasn’t that crazy about part two before I saw it this morning. I’m thinking of seeing it again.

Our neighbor across the street gave us a box full of jellies. I tried Apple Cinnamon and Mint Flavored Apple this morning. I hated the mint one. It tasted way too artificial for me.

I’m knitting once more. Knitting and knotting. It’s pretty addicting. I finally got the right size needles. I’m making myself a bag, it’ll be cute. I got the pattern out of that book by Debbie Stroller. It is very handy, but I wish that she put more abbreviations in it. Even though I’m a novice, and the book is for more professional knitters. Either way, it’s not that hard.

Modern chemistry- the easy way.

I’m currently taking apart an old sweater that I bought for like three dollars. It’s taking forever, since the stitches are really funky. But, I love the yarn, and I’m going to try and make something else, that I’ll actually wear.
I’m sleeping over at Karen’s house tomorrow night!

I’ve been sleeping with the lights on, so if I wake in the night, your picture is clearly in sight.

Why does money have to be such a cruel mistress? Oh.. Dear friends, I found the most awesome website to buy japanese candies. And I have no idea how expensive shipping is going to be on this one. I’ve gotten all the way up to twenty two dollars for shipping only, on an eight dollar purchase. That was Amazon.

It’s getting warmer. I gave up on internet search. Now I’m making a new dress.

I want to hear you sad.

Date created: 2006-03-14 02:14:35
Date updated: 2006-08-01 21:01:18, 1 minute ago
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Gosh, I don’t post that much, do I?

Where are you now?

All right- quickie entry but it is of importance. I will clarify such matters tomorrow, even though I am dying to write it now [we're about to go to bed]:
1. I’M DEFINATELY GOING TO THE CRAFT FAIR IN PORTLAND!
2. I got my pictures off my camera and on the computer, I’ll post them tomorrow, they are of my trip to California [yes, all the way in April]