A stopped clock is right twice a day

Dude! BABY JESUS SHARK RETURNS!!!

Yesssssssssssss.

This rating was determined based on the presence of the following words:

• death (8x)
• suck (6x)
• hell (5x)
• hurt (4x)
• dead (3x)

Hahaha. I cannot believe that.

Woah. But anyways.

I am utterly bored living inside this house right now. I started reading Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince. I may as well get started on it because the new book is coming out soon. I am going to read the newest book as quickly as I can without any outside interferences because I do not want to know who dies (and you know everybody is going to be talking about it. That is how I found out that Dumbledore died. Before I even opened the book.)

… Harry is totally going to die.

I love atheists!  =D

OMGZ! I couldn’t find a way to post it here, but it’s so cute! I was squeeing for about ten minutes after I saw it. Srsly.

… Uh, dude? I have no idea as to what this uncyclopedia thing is for, but it’s pretty darned interesting to read. To be honest, every single page is offensive to one group of people or another.

*ahem* but anyways.

My bruise is purplish yellow. It looks really punk.

I may post again later. Because I can.

And if this is real, then I was mistaken

… “and if there is truth, then why can’t we find it? Beauty comes to those who have been waiting for something bigger than themselves… This is the dream I am dying in, I will wake to find tomorrow content without perfection.”

He saw me today in first period. *teenybopper scream*
But in saying so, I feel somewhat disloyal; that I’m betraying him even though we aren’t even together.

Dear you:
We saw each other today, and oh! It was a luxury, more or less, just because I do not usually allow myself to look at you in that way. But the truth is- nothing will ever happen. I’m the last person you think about. But does she take mental photographs of you to remember how you look because you’re never around? And does she write her thoughts on business cards because she finally found a way to say it? And does she write down the conversations, so she’ll never forget what was said?

*cough cough*

But anyways.

Oh, and I took a test which describes which religion I should be in. Observe:

1.	Secular Humanism (100%)
2.	Nontheist (84%)
3.	Unitarian Universalism (84%)
4.	Theravada Buddhism (60%)
5.	Liberal Quakers (56%)
6.	Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (45%)
7.	Neo-Pagan (33%)
8.	New Age (24%)
9.	Taoism (24%)
10.	Bahá’í Faith (15%)
11.	Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (15%)
12.	Hinduism (15%)
13.	Jainism (15%)
14.	Mahayana Buddhism (15%)
15.	New Thought (15%)
16.	Reform Judaism (15%)
17.	Scientology (15%)
18.	Sikhism (15%)
19.	Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (0%)
20.	Eastern Orthodox (0%)
21.	Islam (0%)
22.	Jehovah’s Witness (0%)
23.	Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (0%)
24.	Orthodox Judaism (0%)
25.	Orthodox Quaker (0%)
26.	Roman Catholic (0%)
27.	Seventh Day Adventist (0%)

Awesome. The only religion I have true tolerance for (that I have actually read about) is Unitarian Universalism. But then again, some people do not even consider it as a religion, since it has no doctrine. It doesn’t even worship a god, necessarily. This religion is not that organized, actually. The beliefs are extremely diverse… I hardly even consider it a religion.
… Except for the fact that it brought up scientology/christian science along in there. Creepy.

The more I ponder the idea of the beginning of life as well as the end of it, I cannot help but gravitate towards solipsism.

Amanda’s  List of Things She Ponders:

1. There is no point in even considering the dividing line between solipsism and the ‘real world’, because one would never feel the ‘real world’ in the first place. You won’t be around after you are dead to see if you made up your world, or if it is really ‘real’.

2. Why did I stick myself in this world full of idiots. Yes, that was a question. But a question mark would be interpreted as a question, which is something I do not want, because I am, more or less, talking to myself.

3. I feel so bad for every person who attends church and believes it.

4. This is the only life I get, and now I grasp that understanding even moreso than before. Before, I think I said it out of the need to say something like it. But now, I really think I have it. Before, I suppose the idea of heaven and hell were still in my brain, despite my disbelief. And now, I realize that this is the only chance I get to do things.  The depressing thing is, I hardly have the means to live life the way I want to, because of how strict my parents are.  And that thought really depresses me.

5. And if this is what “life” is supposed to be, we really need another dictionary.

6.  If only I could walk around with a camera in one hand, and a pocketbook with a pen in my pocket.

7. I should totally make a pinhole camera.

8. I’m so tired of people. I’m tired of everybody’s stupidity, obnoxiousness, narcissism, ignorance, and basic gullibility.

9. I’m never going to get out of this house, am I? I accept my mother’s agoraphobia wholly.  Really, I do. I am even willing to transport myself places. I don’t need a car, I can walk. I can take the bus. Of course not. I’m tired of feeling like I am wasting my life indoors.

10. How can I possibly mind my parents if they do not mind me? They basically called me a devil-child. I no longer care about what they think of me, because if they really think this, then their logic is obviously skewed. I’m a damn good person. My beliefs in god and my basic morality have absolutely nothing to do with each other.

You don’t know the difference between love and submission

… “And I’m not that obedient. Your heart is a grave to be perfectly honest, you mouth is a smoking gun, and you smile while you are twisting the knife in my stomach.”

I have no life. So I’ll write another entry. (There is one beneath this, if you didn’t get the hint.) Maybe I should do a meme. Yes, I should. I took it from the master of memes, A Blog Around the Clock..

Instead of writing a creative year in review, just copy the first sentence of the first blogpost of each month in 2006. Here are mine (I skipped quick shout-outs to carnivals and such): March: this is my first real livejournal entry, feeling excited right now FOR SURE. I have made a livejournal before, but this time I AM COMITTED! Geez. I was such a weirdo last year.

April: Oh my.. This is a starry surprise.

May: Matt from Taking back sunday got hit in the head with the microphone- kinda funny, since he’s always swinging it around.

June: Yes, it is pretty late but I am wide awake with almost a clean slate.

July: Those are my new patterns that I purchased at the wonderful ninety-eight-cents-per-pattern sale going on at Joann’s today. Actually, that is the first entry. Which is private.

So here’s a public entry: It’s one oh six, and gosh darn it- I have not burned off my internet time.

August: Just going to write a quick entry.

September: “What else will John Karr admit to get free air fare?”

October: This three day weekend has been very eventful.

November: Gosh, I haven’t posted in a while.

December: Yup. I’ve joined the +44 bandwagon.

Geez, if you paid attention to that fact, one would assume that I never post here. But according to this:

Date created: 2006-03-14 02:14:35

Date updated: 2007-04-11 20:10:04, 49 minutes ago

Journal entries: 348

Comments:
Posted: 129 -

Received: 160

Three hundred forty eight blog entries. There are three hundred sixty five days in a year. Make a connection.

Bonus round of the memes: 4 movies you could watch over & over:

1. Say Anything…

2. Pretty In Pink

3. Shattered Glass

4. Stolen Life

4 places you’ve lived:

1. Oakland, California

2. Groton, Connecticut

3. Alameda, California

4. Bremerton, Washington

4 TV shows you love to watch:

1. 24

2. Anything relating to psychology

3. The Office

4. Steven’s Untitled Rock Show

4 places you’ve been on holiday:

1. Here.

2. Here.

3. Here.

4. Here.

4 websites you visit daily:

1. Absolutepunk.net

2. A Blog Around The Clock

3. All my e-mail accounts, my MySpace and Facebook accounts, all my sitemeters, etc. - this takes some time!

4. Cognitive Daily

4 of your favorite foods:

1. Pomegranate

2. Any kind of pasta

3. Anything with lemon in it

4. Anything with cinnamon in it

4 places you’d rather be:

1. In my room.

2. On an airplane.

3. In someone’s thoughts.

4. At a show.

Part three:

Seven Times Seven Meme

Seven Things To Do Before I Die

1. Visit every country in the world and spend some time in a few of them

2. Attend at least twenty shows. And meet people in the bands.

3. Make someone genuinely happy

4. Have a day completely to myself without obligations

5. Have a career in which I could travel.

6. Go to Warped Tour.

7. Keep a friendship for longer than a few years, in which we are actively best friends without “dormant” periods.

Seven Things I Cannot Do

1. Stop conceptualizing.

2. Gain weight

3. Believe in supernatural beings of any kind

4. Be athletic in any way

5. Stop being so fickle

6. Be truly optimistic

7. Be truly sociable.

Seven Things I Say Most Often

1. Awesome.

2. Uh, yeah.

3. See you later

4. This, too, shall pass (seriously.)

5. All right.

6. Whatever, dude.

7. I really don’t want to do this.

Seven Books That I Love

1. 1964- George Orwell

2. One Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest- Ken Kesey

3. ReadyMade: How to Make (Almost) Everything

4. The Man Who Tasted Shapes - Cytowic

5. Psychology (textbook)

6.

7. I can’t really think of anything else right now.

Seven Records That I Cannot Live Without:

1. Untitled- Blink 182

2. Beneath The Medicine Tree- Copeland

3. LTTW/North/Ready.. Break EP- Something Corporate

4. Everything in Transit- Jack’s Mannequin

5. BOATS/SILYMI- The Starting Line

6. Nightmare Of You- Nightmare Of You

7. Your Favorite Weapon- Brand New

Dopesick couples on the lower east side

… “against the graffiti wall, we know no law at all.”

For example:

if you score an eighty one in sociability, eighty one percent of people are less social than you are, and eighteen percent of people are more social than you are.

1 Helpful (score = 59)

2 Sociable (score = 39)

3 Need for Approval (score = 37)

4 Dependent (score = 49)

5 Tense (score = 31)

6 Rigid (score = 25)

7 Controlling (score = 63)

8 Competitive (score = 28)

9 Conscientious (score = 58)

10 Achieving (score = 3)

11 Innovative (score = 82)

Summary of results Below is a brief summary of your results. If you wish to learn more, click here (or scroll down) to purchase an extensive 15-page report that includes detailed personalized analysis and customized tips for improvement.

* Likes to be the one in control; wants to do things his/her way

* Wants to lead

* Moody; gets angry and irritable

* Sarcastic and cynical

* Impulsive

* Passionate about friendships, values, beliefs

* Friendly but combative; socially inconsistent

* Likes people but does not fully trust them

* Seeks excitement, stimulation, activity; gets bored easily

* Very assertive, expressive, opinionated

* Gets upset and angry easily, quick temper, argumentative

* Strong sense of urgency; in a hurry

* Unusual combination of traits - very possibly will be perceived by others as aggressive and rigid and far less patient and sociable

Uhh. How accurate is this, really? I’m not sure if it is true or not because all of the statements seem rather… General. Don’t they? Who doesn’t want to be in control? I do agree with the “socially inconsistent”. I don’t know if I should, though. Oh, the gray areas. This quiz was from psychology today, so that’s supposed to be reliable.

But realize that all the major news stations that are supposedly reliable, are censored by the government and have other outside influences.

What’s excellent though, is that there are certain tests from psychology today that are “upgradeable”. What does that mean, America? Yes, you have to pay to get an “upgrade”. … And yet another:

Your locus of control appears to be in the mid-range between internal and external orientation. In general, you probably feel that while you can very well control and influence many aspects of your life, there are things that just happen to you and that are outside of your personal control. And I doubt that anybody else besides me really cares. I don’t expect it, but it’s pretty cool being able to write this down somewhere.

… And another nother: What does your score mean? According to this test, you have a reasonably high level of self-esteem. There is, however, still some room for improvement.
/egotism

Just because..

Yup, here’s a meme.
In 2006 I…
[x] broke a promise
[x] made a new best friend
[ ] fallen in love (stayed in love from 2004)
[x] fallen out of love
[ ] been in over 2 relationships
[x] lied
[ ] went behind your parents back
[x] cried over a broken heart
[x] disappointed someone close
[x] hid a secret
[x] pretended to be happy
[ ] kissed in the rain
[ ] kissed on a first date
[ ] slept under the stars
[ ] kept your new years resolution
[ ] forgot your new years resolution
[x] met someone who changed my life
[ ] met one of your idols
[x] changed your outlook on life
[x] sat home all day doing nothing
[ ] pretended to be ill
[ ] left the country
[ ] almost died
[x] given up something important to you
[ ] broke something expensive
[x] learned something new about yourself
[x] tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
[x] made a change in your life
[x] found out who your true friends were
[x] met great people
[ ] snuck out of the house
[ ] stayed up till sunrise
[ ] pigged out over the summer
[ ] met someone from myspace in person
[x] cried over the silliest thing
[x] got into a car accident
[x] found a person I never thought I’d become good friends with
[x] had friends who were drifting away from me
[x] had someone close to me die
[ ] had a high cell phone bill
[ ] had a fist fight
[ ] went to the beach
[ ] saw a celebrity
[x] gotten sick
[ ] liked more than 5 people at the same time
[x] became closer to a lot of people
[ ] kissed someone as the sun set

Want something more scandalous?
I liked more than three boys at a time. And I stopped liking them at about the same time. I nearly hated someone. I became more mature, but it made me realize how terrible the world is. I acted incredibly stupid. I became less egotistical. I have picked out friends that I want to be more friends with, and the opposite. I did some truly terrible things in the past year. I let myself be blinded by infatuation far too many times this year. I became more of a music snob [I admit it.]

Not that scandalous, but it’s something. At least you know I’m not sleeping around.

You can’t cure his loneliness..

… Doood:

What American accent do you have? Your Result: Philadelphia   Your accent is as Philadelphian as a cheesesteak! If you’re not from Philadelphia, then you’re from someplace near there like south Jersey, Baltimore, or Wilmington. if you’ve ever journeyed to some far off place where people don’t know that Philly has an accent, someone may have thought you talked a little weird even though they didn’t have a clue what accent it was they heard.
The Midland
The Northeast
The Inland North
The South
Boston
The West
North Central
What American accent do you have? Take More Quizzes

XD I posted the code, and it took up the whole text box. Depressing. I’m nowhere near those places they suggested. I’ve never even been to those places before. Quizzes = stupid.

We went to McChord today. I haven’t taken pictures of the belt yet, but I’m certainly planning on it. I was all hyped up about my knitting. I’ll try and take pictures of that.

Allie’s leaving on Thursday, the first day of conference week, and of course, I can’t hang out tomorrow. Because dad has his friend over and mom “doesn’t like driving when it’s windy and rainy”. When someone really wants to make an excuse, they really do pull anything out of the hat.

But yup, another windstorm is supposed to happen tomorrow.
That made me sound really selfish and insensitive- but the weatherman is almost always wrong. Seriously. Eighty percent of the time. There you go.

I need change. Or a distraction. Either will work at this point.

I was on a wikipedia rampage- and I looked Solipsism up, it’s so interesting! [Since I've provided the link, you have to click it!]

I have a science test on Monday, which is more than exciting. I have yet to study for it. But it’s not that big of a deal.that big of a deal.

Sometimes all I do is watch the sky

Seven things to do before I die
1. Leave Washington, go to the east coast
2. Explore Washington / spend a whole day out on the town
3. Go On the Warped Tour
4. Spend a whole day reading
5. Make something spectacular
6. Get an A on a math test
7. Go to a party.

Seven things I cannot do
1. Do anything athletic
2. Do anything with mathematics
3. Be totally sociable with people I don’t know
4. Be serious enough to cry, with someone, in person
5. Not blog for a week.. XD
6. Crafting/cooking/learning about random things
7. Stop wondering about my synesthesia

Seven Books I love
1. The Man Who Tasted Shapes - Cytowic [I actually bought this book..]
2. ReadyMade- How to make [Almost] Everything
3. Dicey’s Song- Cynthia Vogt
4. All of the MYTH books
5. Memory - [ I don't know who this is by]
6. All the Harry Potter books.
7. Senses and perception - [forgot.. again]

Seven Things I say
1. “I am bored”
2. “I wish I got out more”
3. “Can we go to the fabric store?”
4. “Can we go to the thrift store?”
5. “Can we go to the library?”
6. “I do not want to go to school tomorrow”
7. “I am tired”

Seven Movies I Loved
1. Ferris Bueller’s Day Off
2. The Breakfast Club
3. Say Anything…
4. Better Off Dead
5. The Sure Thing
6. Must Love Dogs
7. Wargames

Yes, I am really that bored. I was on a crafty blog- and I found this.
I am considering getting a blogspot account- I hope it’s free. Alot of people with crafty blogs have a blogspot account..

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