But I didn’t mind, because I trusted you.

Yesterday night, and I started crying again over you. This summer was wonderful, but I can’t think about it too much, yeah.

Lorren sent me her homecoming pictures, which are quite red, but they were still nice to look at. Oh, nostalgia.

We went to the cheese factory yesterday. We got home at around eight, and we left at around seven in the morning. If only I remembered to bring my schoolwork, so I would not have been so bored the entire time! The factory itself was pretty underwhelming, seeing as there was really nothing there. I took lots of pictures, though. :3

We went to Sonic, a thrift store, and a craft store on the way there. I live for days like those, as boring as it was. We all had fun together, so that made the tedium okay.

Mom cut my hair the day before yesterday. It looks a little different. I don’t know if people will notice. I look super cute, though.

I married the madness that left me alone in the dark.

I went to Ikea today and the SuperMall. It was a good day. Days like these where we get along. Well, three of us do.

I went to the bathroom at the mall and after I washed my hands, they had those blow-dryer things. BUT THEY WERE AUTOMATIC. So out of nowhere, a huge burst of air came out. And it made me squeal. And an old woman came out of the stall, laughing at me. My hands were wet and as I tried to leave, I opened the door with my elbow, and a woman on the other side was trying to get in. So, yeah, you can see where that was going. Not to mention that NO ONE knows how to use the toilet, so there was pee all over the seat. Which I didn’t realize until I sat down. I hate everyone.

And if it makes you less sad, we’ll start talking again.

… “If it makes you less sad, I’ll move out of the state. You can keep to yourself, I’ll keep out of your way. And if it makes you less sad, I’ll take your pictures all down. Every picture you paint, I will paint myself out.”

We went to ikea yesterday. Most boring trip of my life, but I wanted to go, so I can’t really blame anyone else. We left at nine in the morning and got home at seven.

Gosh, I really wish I could say something intriguing.

Richard Dawkins hosts this new show in the UK, but since I don’t live there, I can’t see it on tv. Oh, but I totally saw it on the internet, and I now realize that Richard Dawkins should have my babies. Kidding, but he’s one rad dude.

At least pretend you didn’t want to get caught

… “I think in decimals and dollars, I am the cause to all your problems, I am everything the other boys promised, oh, it hurts to be this good.”

We went to Uwajimaya today. I now own some Ramune =D

I woke up at two this morning and despite taking my sleeping meds, I still couldn’t sleep. Terrible.

I finished my final draft of my practice dress and am about to cut into my pretty fabric. It’s terrible, though, because I bought four yards of the stuff and hardly need one. Oh, well, the fabric is beautiful!

Tomorrow is school, again. On Wednesday, I have a science test. I wonder if I’ll have a math quiz. I need to go into class early and correct my homework, but my teacher is never there.

I finished reading Fahrenheit 451 today, so I can take my AR test. It’s a relief, but it’s also painful to think about. This whole thing is so stressful already, and my parents are not helping at all. For that reason, I really wish I never told them about this in the first place. I knew I’d regret it, but not this much. So I’ve more or less decided to keep them out of my school life, no matter the cost. Because this is not worth it. I only told them out of fear, too. Terrible.

Your face is on a billboard

… “and you’re everywhere, you don’t care much for interviews… It’s hard to wave goodbye from airplanes when I just don’t think that you can see.”

The softball game was okay. We stayed for two hours. Uh. WE WENT TO IKEA! it was swt. I’ll write more later at a time when I should be awake.

I pick up..

… “Put down the phone, like your favorite Heatmiser song goes, it’s just like being alone.”

We went to Portland yesterday and went sightseeing. It was awesome, I took tons of pictures, I’ll try to post them in the upcoming weeks. Keep in mind, I also have the pictures from the meet and greet, and from Seattle that I am getting developed today, I believe. Drove all day long, got home really late.

We finished seeing Munich, which is one of the most brilliant films that I have ever seen. I absolutely love it- it was great.

Went to St. Vinnies on Saturday. I bought a math textbook, which has given me tons of practice. The textbook is much newer than the books we have now, but I’m not reading it for the lesson, I’m doing it for practice- it’s really big, and it cost me only three dollars. The last person who used it was in two thousand two, and it’s in, surprisingly, really good condition.

Cliff diving

… “Silly girl, I think I have a thing for you, from the late nights that we rode inside a stolen car.”

Yup. I’ve joined the +44 bandwagon. Kind of. I mean- I only like two of the songs that I downloaded from them. The only ones that Mark sings in because there’s this other dude who sings.. And I really don’t like it. It’s too garage-band for me. But maybe I downloaded it wrong or something, I really hope so. I really want to get into them. But I couldn’t help but feel slightly remniscent of blink when I listened to them. Because Mark would sing and then some other dude would sing behind him during the bridge. Sad.

Yesterday was pretty awesome only because the dude and I talked like all period long. Mygatt had like nothing to do for the first half hour of class, so we were talking. And then we went to the lab and we just happened to sit next to each other because Daniella wasn’t there and there weren’t any other seats. Whichever reason compelled him to sit next to me, and stay there, I still really appreciate it. Even though it was very boring to sit next to me, just because I didn’t want to get in trouble, and I didn’t want to get moved! I appreciated the time I had with him even though we hardly talked. And he paid attention to me. He really does make me feel special, whether he means to or not.

So that’s really the highlight of Friday.
And dude:
Boys Like Girls has joined the current The All-American Rejects / Motion City Soundtrack / The Format tour; here are the remaining dates:
Dec 2 2006 7:00P Gibson Amphiteatre Universal City, California
Dec 3 2006 6:00P Ventura Theater Ventura, California
Dec 4 2006 5:30P Event Center @ San Jose San Jose, California
Dec 6 2006 5:30P Quest Field Event Center Seattle, Washington
Dec 7 2006 5:00P P.N.E Forum Hastings Park (No Format) Vancouver, British Columbia
Dec 9 2006 6:00P Salt Air Theatre Magna, Utah
Dec 10 2006 5:30P The Fillmore Auditorium Denver, Colorado
Dec 12 2006 7:00P Uptown Theatre Kansas City, Missouri
Dec 14 2006 7:00P Brown County Veterance Memorial Arena Green Bay, Wisconsin
Dec 15 2006 6:00P The Eagles Ballroom Milwaukee, Wisconsin
Dec 16 2006 6:00P Roy Wilkins Auditorium River Centre Saint Paul, Minnesota
Dec 17 2006 6:00P Clearwater Theater (no AAR or MCS) West Dundee, Illinois
Dec 18 2006 5:30P Eastern MI Convocation Ctr. Ypsilanti, Michigan
Dec 19 2006 5:00P Arragon Ballroom Chicago, Illinois
Dec 20 2006 5:30P Assembly Hall - University of Illinois Champaign, Illinois

Oh dude!! Despite the fact that TSL is NOT going to these dates [that's really the hugest reason why I would like to go.. The Starting Line.. Oh, how that makes my little heart go pitter patter.. *teenybopper scream*], and Boys Like Girls is not one of my favorite bands any more [if you've been a loyal reader.. You'd know my whol rant about powerpop. And the name.. Sounds like a boy band. And their music.. Sounds like a boy band.], I still really love The Format, and Motion City. But it’s booked at the Qwest center, so that makes me doubt even going since it’s so far away and the tickets are probably expensive [Well, for more reasons than that but I really don't feel like writing it down. Laziness pwns all.]

Dad and I went to St. Vinnie’s today to get me some crafting supplies. We also went to Goodwill. Amazing- no yarn at all. St. Vinnie’s had some, but they were all completely acrylic, and since I am so satisfied with my sweater, I think I deserve something a little better. Even though I do not want to spend the money to do so. I mean dude- ten dollars a skein for some cashmere / merino wool blend. I understand why the price is so high, but gosh.. Why not stick it on sale just for me?!
/self-centeredness [kind of]

I got my package in the mail from Joanns. Why is it that all of the online orders I place from Joann’s, I am always disappointed? I mean really. I got some star buttons, which are pretty adorable, except for the fact that after I sorted them out by color: six green buttons, two red ones, four magenta ones.. And the pattern goes on. The package had like twenty buttons in it. And I paid three bucks for that. Never again. And I bought some fabric transfer crayons. It’s much cooler than it sounds. And the result is actually supposed to be really awesome. I saw it with my own eyes [Sure, an internet picture totally works]. Except.. It only works on synthetics. Either a hundred percent, but no less than fifty. I’m sorry- I am not going to do freaking transfers on something that I wouldn’t even wear in the first place. I do not like how synthetics feel. A little bit of spandex or lycra is good for the fit- but I am not going to wear a shirt out of a hundred percent. Cotton is always the way to go.
Bottom line: I wasted five dollars.

I am now doing an essay for english again. The rough draft is due on monday and I think I’m doing pretty well. I have three topic paragraphs and I’m doing pretty awesomely on two of them. But I cannot think of anything to do for writing about the Declaration of Independence. No. And this is not good at all.
I also have a powerpoint due on Wednesday. I still cannot find that stupid question. I hate penicillin and I’m tired of learning about it and I really could not care less about any aspect of it. If I get a life threatening illness and I require penicillin to live- dude, just forget about it.

I’m going to the mall with Allie tomorrow. If all else fails- I’ll buy some presents for my friends. That’s Allie’s reason for going, too. And if that doesn’t work out, I still have the desire to shop. I want to check out that new World Market store. It has some cool foreign candies. And everyone and their mothers know that I love that kind of stuff. =D

What did you possibly expect under this condition so…

Yup. Went to Whaling Days.
… And did any of you guys happen to look outside at the wonderful, pouring rain??? Yes. I got soaked. I saw Nick. Actually said hello to him. My hair was so freaking wet.

But yeah, I got a greasy elephant ear. It wasn’t that great. I want a taco, really.

Went to Office Depot, and the rental store. I want to buy some new books.

You’re dying just to keep me cool.

Oh.. God. I’m so sore. My butt hurts.
Mom: Well, Amanda, you’re in PE.. That’s what happens.
Me: Mom, my butt hurts- when your butt hurts, you know it’s not an act of god! Someone is out to spite me.

Today I’m supposed to go to the post office and drop off my swap package- but I have yet to recieve my partner’s address- this is great. I sent her my address and everything.. At least this gives me time to figure out how I can send it- with the least amount of money. Sending a package to another country can get expensive.

I’ve been saying, that I am in sleep debt. And as expected, I woke up at seven thirty this morning. Someone really is out to spite me.

HAH!!! I just uploaded my pictures all by myself, yes I did! It turns out.. All I needed to do was turn the camera on! It’s that simple, oh my god! I’m so proud of myself, the idea came to me out of NOWHERE! Haha to you, god! HAH, HA.
… Because dude, I’ve been trying to figure this out for such a long time! =D I feel so content and happy. I told you- it doesn’t take much to make me happy.

.. But, keep in mind, I did get a little picture-happy when we went to Old Towne.. So, it’ll take me a while to upload them to photobucket. And, expect an entry full of frustration and anger, considering it takes forever to upload anything to photobucket, at least with my luck.

You know, I haven’t done top ten time in a really long time- so, here it goes:
Top Ten Songs That Have Been Popping In And Out Of My Head:
1. Rescued- Jack’s Mannequin
2. Hello Houston- Starting Line
3. I Want To Save You- Something Corporate
4. Suzie- Boy Kill Boy
5. Happy Holidays.. - Blink 182
6. Sweet Talk 101- Cute Is What We Aim For
7. Baby Blue- The Early November
8. Become What You Hate- Midtown
9. Indoor Living- Motion City Soundtrack
10. Monsters Invisible- Motion City Soundtrack

“Standing on the edge of morning, center sets and New Found Glory, playing as she’s pulling back her hair, drives away she’s feeling worthless, used again but nothing’s different, she’d stay the night but knows he doesn’t care… Home by three a deafening quiet, the porch light’s off, yes, they forgot it, she’d cry herself to sleep, but she don’t dare”…
… I Want To Save You- SoCo. That’s what’s going through my head as I write this.
Now I’m off to upload things to photobucket. Let’s see how this works.

But it’s okay, we’ll come around

Gosh, wireless mouses are cool. And annoying. AT THE SAME TIME! I come to the decision to type, only to accidentally hit the mouse, thus clicking the button and initializing some operation, here or there. Right now, I almost printed this empty page.

We went to mcchord today, without my mother. She needed sleep, she’s been having a hard time doing so at night. So yeah, we went today, and I had to wait for dad with Andy in the barber shop. Andy’s hair made him look like a dinosaur- and yet he doesn’t comb his hair or get it all chopped off. Interesting. I was folding every straight line on my dollar bill. People looked at me funny, and expected me to turn it into something spectacular, like a wine bottle or something. It was interesting. And it was fun making them think I’m some child wonder.

After we left- we went to the sports shop. Then we went into McChord and I got a large button-down shirt. I can now reconstruct it into that awesome dress- look it up, wists-style. The large men’s button down shirt only cost me.. badabing! THREE DOLLARS. Awesome. Love my rad money- saving skills! It’s not even that ugly, I do admit though, I wouldn’t say it’s the prettiest. But hey, it’s for recon and anything looks good in a dress. . . almost anything.

We went to St. Vincents after, I got some cool vintage fabric. It’s an aqua color- but it’s cute. I also got two bags of buttons. They are not alot of them, however- St. vinnie’s is smart at making a profit. It’s a two and a half inch by three inch bag - pretty tiny. But I got some big buttons and alot of them- The person donating was generous- or the person packing the buttons. I spent a total of three dollars and ninety one cents , pretty proud of myself. I love buttons! XD Big buttons are so cool. I was talking Allie’s ear off today about buttons- she wasn’t that enthusiastic.. Tsk tsk, those non-crafters!

Megan called me today and asked me if I could go over to her house on Monday after school. I was not home, and mom was sleeping, so she talked to the answering machine. Dad said that I’ll have to talk to mom- who knows when she’s going to wake up!!! I’ll have to be patient- which is something I have been working on all this week.

I got another proposal yesterday. The whole idea is, sometime next week, Allie, Debbie, Karen M. and I will go to Old Town Silverdale [for you all that are not from around here- it's a collection of shops that are spread out a couple of streets. It's really cool.] and shop, look at the shops [dude! THRIFT SHOPPING!!!] and eat lunch there. We just have to decide on a day that we’ll go. I don’t want to wait until Friday- it’ll make the week feel longer and I’ll be too anxious.

So, I was thinking Tuesday. But, the bad thing is, I have summer school on Monday through Thursday, I get out of PE at twelve, but I’ll need to take an uber quick shower and meet them there at one. We’re going to meet at the library, I guess, since it’s the biggest place there. We haven’t worked the details out, but my friends love me and they’ll be willing to work around their schedules =D

I am really looking forward to it- not only do I get my present from Allie [not that I'm expecting anything big.. XD She's been telling me about it ever since she's gotten back from NY, it's supposed to be a big present. I'm trying not to be excited, but hey, my birthday is coming up! the one time of the year that I get presents and proposals to hang out, for one occasion.] but we’re going to have so much fun! I haven’t seen Karen in the longest time- and Debbie and Allie are always a blast to hang out with ;)

.. And then, there’s the whole- hanging out in Seattle with Laurie, Karen H., Megan, and maybe Riza plan. We’ve been planning this ever since the last two weeks of school- it’s just that our schedules are so packed, for the most part. Karen can’t go on Sundays [or Saturdays?] because she has church, Riza has church too. Then there’s the parental issue. Our parents are so protective- at least mine and Megan’s. Karen’s and Laurie’s parents are very willing to let their daughters go. Laurie’s mom volunteered to take us in the first place. But then there’s the pricing on the ferry.. There are so many factors. I want to go- it would be fun- but it’ll be a hassle to put together.

I love cooking. Cooking makes everything better. I love cooking various things- at the same time or one after the other. It’s just so fun. If I have a problem- I cook. Or I sew. I love that void while you’re doing it. It’s either you’re only thinking about the thing you’re pursuing, or thinking about the problems that have nothing to do with the activity. It’s so fun. I guess this is the kind of feeling other people get when they do sports- I’m too busy messing it up!

It’s four twenty and gosh darn it, I’m kind of tired. I wanted to do something crafty. But will that happen- NO! Of course not! I have to get started in the afternoon or in the early morning. If I do it at night- I end up not being able to stop, and I wind up staying up late, or just not finishing the project the next day!

My swap partner sent me an e-book through e-mail [heh, that was a fun sentence to write and read over!] and it is so interesting! It’s about projects to do with soda can tabs and about said items in general. I like it- I just got started reading it- I’ll read it more after I get offline, so I won’t waste my precious internet time! [no one will get at me lucky charms! XD when was the last time you heard that?! =D]

Dad got an exercise ball- and it was interesting to see Andy play with it. He’s eleven and yet he acts like a five year old! Hah! He was on all fours on that darned exercise ball, he was falling all over the place! XD I cannot express how funny it was! I, however, have had experience with such equipment and I, indeed, did not fall off the ball! Amanda did good- yes, she did.

.. And then, with all my plans, I just remembered- I told Riza that on my birthday, she might be able to sleep over. It is too short notice to call her now and ask her to sleep over on Sunday, who knows if I can go over to Megan’s house, and if Riza did sleep over, we’d have summer school the next day. Gosh- summer school is getting to be really inconvieniencing [.. I did not spell that right- don't write me letters]. Last summer I had no plans at all- this summer I do, yet I have to attend summer school, I hope this pays off in the end. I cannot help but feel like I am wasting part of my precious summer. Yet, I have fun in summer school. Oh, what a dilemma XD

Edit, sort of:
I hardly ever edit. But a thought came to mind, and I thought that it would be pointless to write a whole other entry, if I just had a simple thought:
I decided not to check an e-mail account [I have two, one that I mainly use that is AOL, the other one is a hellokitty account. ] for two days, and I recieved sixty eight new e-mails. Oh, spam, what a beautiful thing.

You met me at the terminal- just one more plane ride and it’s done.

Yesterday was certainly, a day to remember. No crafts fair in Oregon- better- SEATTLE!

We went to Uwajimaya, and I got some awesome foreign candy.. I ate roasted corn and got some bubble tea. It was full of yellow people. But still.
And, as promised, I took pictures, not as much as the California trip, and I haven’t uploaded them.

We left at nine or ten, and it’s four now. We drove all the way over there [no wonder people from Seattle never usually invest in a car- it's impossible to park.] and back.

It was still tons of fun- we went to Nancy’s Sewing basket [expensive.] and a thrift store [which was giving away free condoms. I didn't cash in on such an offer- Lorren needs this kind of gear though XD]

… And I got home with a lovely surprise- my nose started bleeding. Even my nose couldn’t believe how I managed to make my way to Seattle. I didn’t even have to kill people. I just had to annoy.

.. And then there’s today!
I went to Summer School, and wow, it wasn’t that bad. Me, Riza, and Angela, all went together, only to find out there are different rooms for different grades, so we had to leave Angela at her classroom.
We played a game and I got Riza’s boyfriend! I made him do push ups! That’s what happens when you’re an idiot, my friendd.

It’s three fifty five, I got back from my doctor’s appointment.

I’m hungry.. I want to eat something..

LA!
Maybe all of us from PE can hang out after.. I was surprised we had so much fun! We are all closer because of this- just the fact that we are hanging out, outside of regular school.

Well, I’m tired. I’ve been typing alot today! Oh, and powerwalking alot today.

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Yesterday was so cool- I got out of the house for a whole day. I said I wanted to go to St. Vincents.. But it was closed. The one day it is closed- Sunday - the day I managed to get dad to take me.

We were also supposed to buy new phones- since one of them died, and who knows how long it’ll take until the other one dies.

We went to Barnes and Noble first, and Dad met someone who he used to work with.. He looked like a total nerd. His shirt was tucked in his pants, his pants were high waters, and he was wearing penny loafers. I got a look at his socks.

I went to the section where it talked about Seattle. It had the coolest things in it. After that, I went to the crafts section.. The one book I’ve been wanting, was not there. I wanted to get a ReadyMade magazine.. And it wasn’t there either. At least I got a green tea frap.. And it tasted funny. It tasted like green tea, then it tasted like bread [you know, after it's out of the oven], and then it had this disgusting black taste… It twisted around, it was so gross. I bet that’s an omen for something. There’s an omen for everything.

We went to Goodwill’s, and I bought some new fabric! They had almost no selection in the fabric section, but I went to the bed sheets section and there was so much.. lol. I got a plain lavendar sheet for a full bed, which is quite a bit of fabric. I also got some green fabric, which is pretty ugly, but I can probably use it for something later. I got another one, but I forgot what it is..

If people supposedly wash whatever they bring to Goodwill, then why does goodwill [or the item purchased from there] still smell like other people? This fact was brought to my attention in the most unlikely way. You expect old women to be polite and prim and proper, but this elderly woman told me about this. I was looking at the sheets and she was looking at chair cushions, and she asked me why goodwill smells so bad, I laughed and told her that I didn’t know. She was decent looking, and she was nice to me. But asking those kind of questions, knowing from experience, gets me in trouble. It was interesting- since dad was gone and I was by myself, and she talked to me. I didn’t expect it. She acted like I was her granddaughter, or an old friend, and we only talked for five minutes. I guess you really can’t judge a book by its cover.

We went to the Pacific Fabrics store, which was across from Goodwill, and the fabrics were beautiful. I loved them. But their prices made me want to go in a corner and cry my days away. The cheapest fabrics were three dollars. Their most expensive [that I saw] was ten. Ridiculous.

We went to Joann’s, and I bought two new fabrics. One, is the same as my “pleated” skirt, the other is pink with flowers.. So adorable. I also got some good quality ribbon- clearance for twenty five cents each! I got two. I looked for patterns.. But those were expensive too..

^^ That dress is ok.. I’m just looking to put pictures in here!! That is from Anthropologie

I’ve been blogging almost everyday. That shows how much time I have to waste during the day.

“You are a sellout, but you couldn’t even do that right.”

It takes time to write here, and get pictures to put here.. lol

Here are some blogs that I’ve been reading lately:

thimble

Whip up

Super Eggplant!

… I’m tired of working on HTML. Peace out.

Mics are for singing- not for beating people

Matt from Taking back sunday got hit in the head with the microphone- kinda funny, since he’s always swinging it around. He’s allright, but i’ve always wondered if he would get hurt, and he did. -SHOCK.

So, we’re leaving on the __ [you know where] tomorrow, and since it’s [you know where], the streets are very crowded. I stepped outside the house today and surprisingly, [insert city here] is very cozy. It’s also very pretty.

I want to make something for myself, but of course, I left everything at home.
I just got into the gaming world and I love Mario. Mario has always been my favorite game to play, but I’ve been playing it all day long.

Hmm, what else to say?

The idea of being on a [insert least preferred traveling machine here, or the one you know I'm using], even though you can see through the windows the whole time- we got delayed four hours. So we got here past midnight. We were supposed to be here at [if you recognize this say hi, RED.] , but we got here way past that time. It got me mad. And now when we get back on the train on the way home, there won’t be a chef on the dining car.

it is now three-twelve, and I thought people would be online by now- school’s out by now in [my homw state, yo.]. I don’t get it, but whatever. I’ll just post this to keep me and you entertained..

Riza has a boyfriend. The sad thing is, I found this out online. I guess she is over jimmy, now. She has been for a while [and I'm not into him.], but I haven’t been so sure [not that I mind.]. It’s weird though, she has a boyfriend and she is probably hiding it. I’m still going to tell mom though. There’s a reason why both of us can’t date, and we both know what it is. [She even said she doesn't want one. I am not jealous- I know I'm sounding like I am. It is her business, maybe I shouldn't say anything. I don't know, this is weird. Beyond weird. You know I love riza. She is almost my sister [not genetically, that's funky, like, detroit-funky.]..]

MY assigments are taking control of my brain- I want to do them but I don’t. Procrastination.. LOL.

Hmm. So then it was like, ohmygoodd.. I’m in __________.
And people actually miss me in __________. I didn’t think they really would.. lol

But, I’m somewhat important, riiighhht??

I miss my people from the double-u’s to the A’s
I’m worried and it won’t be washed away by the rays

It’s humid and stuffy and last night it got really hot. I was surprised.
I’ll end this entry but remember..
I love you. 5763.
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