make me think beautiful unexpected thoughts

… “I trace every curve on your precious face and pray some day you’ll beg me, to beg you run away. Please make me not so crazy. Make me fall apart. I should mean more.”

Oh, how I would love to stop thinking about this. And I keep telling myself that this will be over and worth it, but I’m very sure I am wrong. I wish I could think in any other way than that of a teenage girl. Darned amygdala!

Ah. He said he missed me. What he was missing about me, I don’t know. Maybe he was just trying to look sweet. Maybe he was feeling insecure and needed to make someone feel special. The year is over and this infatuation should be, too. Or maybe I hoped too hard and it meant nothing. He sounded serious to me. Out of all the people in the world to love, I chose the one that is farthest away from me.

Forget it.

Synesthesia post. I haven’t thought about my synesthesia in months. I don’t feel that special, even though I should.

So. I’m going to carry on this trend that other blogs have been engaged in, and that is to list all of the weird searches people used to get to their blog. Let’s see. These are only the interesting ones. If only I cursed here more, because that’d be interesting. My blog stats are kind of high, but they aren’t due to searches, haha.