I love controversy.

New Years is coming up- I didn’t really know until the saleslady at McChord told me to have a Happy New Year. New Year’s day/eve is so overrated. It’s just a new year! But, I have to give into the hype and dedicate this entry mostly to new year’s. Go figure.

I’m not really expecting much out of 2007. Seven is my lucky number, but I know I’m going to have a hard time saying two thousand seven instead of two thousand six. I am hoping to finish ninth grade without dying from stress/boredom/stupidity. Hopefully tenth grade will be awesome. At least up until the first semester. I want people to be smarter. I’m tired of stupid people. I really want people at the high-school to be more music-savvy than the people at the junior high [despite the fact that I still need to deal with all the people I deal with now, because we are [inevitably] migrating together to the high school.] because I am tired of stupid mainstreamers and their superiority complex.

I want to be able to deal with people better. I phrased that wrong- I treat people nicely, but it always seems to be the complete opposite of how I really feel. But that is really the only thing I want to change about myself when it comes to my view of the world and how I think. I am very satisfied with how I am, how I look, my personality, and my life.

I want to hang out with my friends more next year, because in the years following this one- we will be more or less, drifting apart.

I want to take up some new crafts next year, too. Resin making is topping my list right now. I hope that I do not grow out of my knitting/sewing/crafting phase!

Funny how I’m nervous still

… “I’ve always been the easy kill, I guess I always will. Could it be that everything goes round by chance or only one way that was always meant to be? You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say. “

We went out for breakfast today- Shari’s. It was awesome. We then went to Costco to pick out my glasses, but mom forgot the prescription so we’ll have to drop it off later. The glasses are awesome. I think. I never thought that picking out glasses could be so difficult.

Tender is the night.. Is not that bad. I guess. I have to kill my imagination as I read this book simply because I tend to gaze off. It has so many characters- which makes it hard to distinguish them- I hardly know what connection they have because they are just plotted into the book. Mr. and Mrs. McKisco, Mary North and her husband, Ms. Speers, Rosemary, Dick Diver and his wife Nicole, Tommy Barban, that Brady musician dude, that dude who duelled with Barban… Ah!

This made me feel awesome:
“Girls don’t suck at math

Hope you guys all heard about this study debunking the idea that boys are inherently better at math than girls. Basically, they gave a bunch of women a math test – each group was required to read a little essay before writing the test. Those who read an essay about how women are inferior at math because of their genes didn’t do well on the test. Those who read an essay telling them their gender was irrelevant to the test did well. And here’s the really interesting part: women who were simply reminded of their gender didn’t do as well as those told gender played no part in math ability.

This isn’t the first study of its kind – many have shown that female performance on math tests varies with what you tell them about women and math beforehand. One classic study gave a math test to Asian women. Those reminded they were women did poorly – and those reminded that they were Asian did well. (Obviously the reminder made them think of the “Asians are good at math” stereotype.)

The general scientific thinking is usually that men are slightly better at visual and spatial tests (which includes things involving numbers) and women are slightly better at linguistic tests. I admit, I’ve always had a tiny bit of sympathy for this idea (erroneous as it might be). Although I don’t suck at math, I really hate it – and I love words and writing.

But then you’ve got to think about how women might appear to be worse at math because of cultural norms – all sorts of studies have shown that girls get less time and attention in math classes from their teachers. So it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy: people don’t think girls are good at math, so teachers don’t give them the attention and time they need in school, so their math skills suffer, they grow up to have little confidence or enjoyment in math, and then we all think women really do suck at math.

So it’s always great to see studies like this, that reinforce the idea that women can intellectually stand toe-to-toe with men on any subject. “

It was very long, but it is actually a very interesting read.

I’ve been reading alot about feminism and humanitarianism basically. Did you know that the mica that is in makeup [to make it sparkly and stuff], is mined by children [who get diseases like tuberculosis and die because of this]? Did you also know about those “teen pregnancy crisis centers” [places that claim to offer abortions, but they actually are pro-life- so they convince [or at least try to ] these women that go there out of their choice to get an abortion] are sponsored by the Bush administration? And, did you know that because of the No Child Left Behind Act, high schools now send lists with the names of all of their students to the military? They are actually given money to do this. The world is so much scarier than I thought.

I was also surprised when I found this out: Salespeople are trained to leave some clothes unfolded, because people want to buy something enhances their shopping experience, and the whole touch and feel thing does that. They also train their salespeople to talk to the customers within the first six seconds when they walk into the store because the more salesperson-customer interaction- the more likely you’ll buy something, because studies show that the less interaction, the less guilty you will feel if you leave empty-handed. Just keeping you informed ;)

I cleaned my room all day yesterday. Actually, my bookshelf even more so than my room. I have one of those “collapsable” bookshelves. They’ve been quite sturdy this whole time [I've had them for quite a while, at least three or four years], but after I took off all of the books [note: it's empty now], the hwole thing fell down. So I had to put it back up again.

I have a bajillion things in my room that I do not need. I feel very guilty because we wasted so much money on these things that I do not need, and have absolutely no intention of needing in the future. I really wish that I could sell them and get all the money back that we spent. But I highly doubt it. I also have a ton of magazines from like four or five years ago that are no use to me now. So, I obviously need to find some crafty use for these magazines. I’m thinking of cutting them up and using them to make a magazine rack for the magazines that I do read now [liiike.... VogueKnittting; Knit.1; Interweave Knits; Bust; Spin; Real Simple; Psychology Today; etc.], or maybe I can make them into a wallet, since I really need one. It’ll be rad.

And because of all this cleaning, I’ve realized that I want some kind of change when it comes to my room. I can make whatever I want- I have the skills. I just need to think of something! Gah! I do not remember the last time I changed a part of my room, it’s been the same for years. My fabric has dominated one corner of my room, so I need to find a nice way to organize it.

So go on, love..

… “Leave while there’s still hope to escape, got to take what you can these days, there’s so much ahead, there’s so much regret, I know what you want to say, I know it but can’t help feeling differently.”

Yesterday, my mother and I went to the eye doctor, only to find out that our appointment is today. I would have been just fine if the appointment was not at eight in the morning, and that I had to wake up at six thirty in order to prepare for it. We went again today, and I got my eyes dilated. It’s not as bad as I thought it would be [I have never been to an eye doctor in my life, I've had my eyes screened at school, but never an actual eye doctor.] but it still kind of sucks. I am getting glasses soon, though: “Don’t get me wrong- you do have pretty good eyesight, but you have a slight astigmatism which means that some of the stuff you see is pretty blurry, right? I’m going to prescribe you some glasses so you can see more clearly, so your headaches will go away.” Now, I get to choose some frames for myself!

Secretly, I’ve always wanted glasses. I’ve always thought that they look so cool. And now I get to pick some cute ones out!

I bought some more yarn [yes..] at Linda’s after the appointment, some more Cascade 220 in the most awesome shade of purple. It’s more like a dark mauve, really, but it’s still awesome. I love it, as my other yarns, but I cannot decide what to make with them! I want another sweater, but I am unable to find a style that I like! I have not progressed to the stage where I can actually draft up my own patterns [all right, maybe I could if I put in the effort.. But I really do not want to.], so I have to find one that suits me.

We also went to the library and I got Tender Is The Night by Fitzgerald. I like it, but since my eyes are dilated I cannot read small print, which is beyond annoying. We also went to Target, and I bought some contact paper so I can stencil once more. I also bought two new blouses and a tee, the blouses are awesome and I cannot wait to wear them!

I have been watching The Urethra Chronicles [get your head out of the gutter- it's a blink 182 documentary thing], and I cannot help but laugh whenever I watch it. They were so young, and now they’re kind of old XD

I finished my shirt completely, but I still want to spruce it up just a tiny bit.. I’m thinking of getting some scrap white jersey fabric and stencilling something awesome on it and then.. I will sew it somewhere on the shirt [still deciding], and it’ll be awesome. I’m super proud of this shirt, I actually got the hang of sewing the sleeves on! =D

I’m still in the middle of this whole Jimmy Eat World phase, but oh.. Futures is awesome. Even though I said that I liked Clarity- I think I’ve changed my mind. Futures is much softer than Clarity, I think.

I’ve started to check out Psychology Today, and for the first time ever, I’ve finished a magazine by reading all of the articles in it [excluding the letters to the magazine, table of contents, ads, etc.] it is so interesting and I got some more backcopies from the library- I have been anticipating reading it, but I cannot because I have to read my AR book, and I have to still wait a little while until my vision is less blurry.

We finished watching 24, season five. Tony died! Oh, he died! He was my favorite male character in the whole thing [female character- either Chloe or Michelle.] and he died. That really grinds my gears.

… I still do not totally buy it, though. He’s alive- I know it.

Edgar: “Why didn’t you tell me?”
Chloe: “Why does it matter?”
Edgar: “You are too secretive, Chloe. We are friends, we should be able to talk to each other!”
Chloe: “I’m sorry, Edgar, after we get the nerve gas from the terrorists, me and you will have a cup of chamomile tea and we will tell each other secrets!”
*Edgar walks away, Chloe continues working*

“Rather live my life in regret then do this. What happened to the love we both knew? We both chased. Hanging on a cigarette you need me, you burn me, you’ll burn me.”

It seems so easy just to blame the reception

… “And I’ve only wrapped seven f______ presents.”

Why I am better than you:
1. I am now the proud owner of a 30 GB Ipod.
2. I thought Christmas was over until..
“Jacks Mannequin has released a “Holiday” E.P. on their website.”
AAnndd… I found someone who upped it, and I downloaded it. Sweet. I’ve been hearing good things about their Holiday From Real on here- but seeing as my favorite song on EIT is La La Lie, I’m anticipating that song instead.
3. I now have a DVD with Something Corporate playing live at Ventura. I have never felt so teeny bopper in my life- but that was a really great show to watch! If only I were there! I nearly cried when I saw Andrew come out, as well as clutch.. So pathetic.
4. I had tenderloin and shrimp for my Christmas dinner.
5. I am making an awesome shirt for myself and the sleeves are actually working out! The whole ordeal is a huge sewing accomplishment for me. I’m thinking of putting in some darts to add some kind of contour [so it fits me better, for a lack of a better word], because even though it is jersey, it is barely cutting it when it comes to it shaping to my body [no, it's not that tight. It's very comfy though.]
5. I got pretty much everything I wanted for christmas.
6. I watched 24 yesterday and Edgar died. Even though I knew this beforehand, I cried my little heart out. He died because of that darned Sentox gas! Lynn, you stupid idiot, why did you let your druggie sister take your wallet with your entrance card in it?! I’m happy you are not at CTU anymore!*sobs*
7. “
Muse, Thrice, Saves the Day, The Early November, Hot Rod Circuit, Men Women and Children, Haste the Day, The Devil Wears Prada, PlayRadioPlay, The Deer Hunter, Whole Wheat Bread, Rob Base and DJ Easy Rock have been added to the Bamboozle’s lineup. “
Buut.. Do not think of the fact that I probably won’t get to go to Bamboozle.. But I get a nice feeling when I know that some of my favorite bands are touring together… [I don't know, either.]
8. Heh, dude, It’s me. *modest shrug*

Jimmy Eat World is awesome. I cannot get over how great 23 and Polaris are. I love their other songs too [especially from Clarity], but these two blow me away every time I listen to them.
“I feel that when I’m old, I’ll look at you and know,
The world was beautiful.”

Well, that’s my holiday post.

Take my words the way I’m taking yours

… “Listen once and listen close to me, even our heart transplant won’t show you how I feel.. Those sly jokes and things we know are the farthest thing from my mind.”

I do not get how people say that old Punchline stuff is worse than the new stuff. I’d say they are equally catchy. o.O

Tomorrow is actually Christmas Eve. That’s so weird. It doesn’t really feel like Christmas either. I do not feel any of that childish anticipation. I remember that I could not sleep the night before Christmas because I was so excited.

Bad actors with bad habits, some sad singers, they just play tragic..

…”Then my mind went dark, we both forgot where your car was parked, let’s just take the train, I’ll meet up with the band in the morning.. I want a lover I don’t have to love, I got a hunger and I can’t seem to get full, I need a meaning I can memorize, the kind I have just seems to slip my mind.”

I went to Riza’s thing last night, she won the prize again! She is considering not doing it next year, though. She has tons of things going on right now, geez! It was a pretty awesome show, but I got a headache from the lights… Almost every act wore glitter! Loads of it!

I finished 1984 today, which is a huge accomplishment. I really had to crack the whip this time! It is actually a very good book, but the ending was pretty repetitive but it was about torture, and if you want to describe something like that [o.O], I guess it is pretty hard not to sound repetitive.

My next book has to be one that I already own because I doubt that we are going to go to the library any time soon. So I’m reading Great Expectations over again.. If I can take the tedium.

Mom, Dad, and Andy are at a movie and I decided to stay home. Okay, I did not necessarily decide to stay home because I feel very ill, and am having “feminine issues”. Either way- I’m not having fun being by myself. I’m actually annoying myself because of all this pain I am going through, and I realize that merely complaining about it does not change anything. So basically- the only thing I can do is take ibuprofen and bite the bullet.

Riza and Angela seemed to like the presents I gave them. Riza was actually showing it off to the world! It made me feel pretty darned awesome. But sometimes it is hard to tell what they are really thinking because they are so polite, that’s just the thing. And I suppose that is with everyone, because isn’t that sort of the point of being polite?

…”When I recognize this moment, this moment will be gone. I worry- I weigh three times my body. And I will wait to find if this will last forever. And I will pay no mind when it won’t, because it can’t, it can’t, it’s not supposed to.”

Christmas is so close! Karen has invited me to go with her to church on Christmas Eve. I want to go, actually; You already know my beliefs here. Yet I want to expand my knowledge. Maybe actually going to church will show me something else besides the things that I’ve learned through research. I am stubborn, however, and I doubt that I will change my mind, but I do hope that this will somewhat influence me [if that makes sense].

I have been forgetting to eat lately. Which is a pretty stupid feeling. Honestly- my tummy growls but I do not feel any hunger. It is something that has always happened with me [at least in the last couple of years], but it is still not healthy. I think I am going to eat some pizza after I finish writing this entry.

I just realize that almost all of my friends have a boyfriend/girlfriend. I could easily ask a boy out, and they would say yes [although, I do not do so because I am not allowed to date.], mostly because I am awesome[XD I certainly have no self esteem issues here!], and the other reason is that boys accept these invitations so readily at this age. Boys are not confident at all at this age, the only reason why so many people are in relationships right now, is because the dude believes that he can’t get any in the first place. I cannot wait until I am twenty, when people of the opposite gender are finally confident, and not shy or awkward. I really just want a mature guy to hang out with- because there are hardly any around. There are plenty of smart dudes- just not mature ones.

All I can do is close my eyes..

…”And cross my arms and hope to die.. Can we fake it? Can we make believe? I’m so full of love it deeply sickens me.”

Everyone’s doing “Best of 2006″ lists already.. I’ll post mine now!
Best of ‘06 [things that actually came out in 2006]:
1. The Format Dog Problems
2. John Mayer Continuum
3. Cartel Chroma [Except.. Their EP was so much better.]
4. Men Women & Children S/T
5. Cute Is What We Aim For The Same Old Blood Rush With a New Touch [But.. This was a little bit of a disappointment. It was very cliche, and pretty darned annoying at times.]
6. Plus 44 When Your Heart Stops Beating
7. Punchline 37 Everywhere

Okay.. Now here’s some records that I just happened to discover in ‘06 [excluding those from above]:
1. Something Corporate Leaving Through The Window
2. Jack’s Mannequin Everything in Transit
3. Copeland Beneath the Medicine Tree
4. Brand New Your Favorite Weapon
5. the early november For All Of This EP
6. Nightmare of You S/T
7. Jimmy Eat World [err.. Lots of records by them]
8. Saves The Day Stay What You Are
9. The Format Interventions + Lullabies EP
10. The Starting Line Say It Like You Mean It
11. Motion City Soundtrack I Am The Movie

Most Anticipated in 2007:
1. The Starting Line
2. Any release by Andrew McMahon
3. Valencia
4. The Academy Is.. [Hopefully they haven't decided to "mature" as a band.. Because their sound is just fine!]
5. Jimmy Eat World [they set their date even further from February =(]
6. Anything produced by Mark Hoppus [I doubt that there's going to be another +44 record coming out next year, since they just released one]
7. Nightmare of You
8. Hopefully.. Motion City Soundtrack, but I’m not betting on it

My “predictions” for ‘07 [as in.. Who will go mainstream.]:
1. Definitely Boys Like Girls, since their label is really pushing them out there.. They’ve been all over the internet for months- it is almost time for them to be all over TV.
2. Powerspace, definitely. Now that they are signed onto Fueled By Ramen- they’re definitely going to get pushed out there.

Eh.. I don’t feel like writing about that anymore.

I have an orthodontist appointment later. Then after that, I get to go to Riza’s recital! I can’t wait to give them their presents! =D

I’ve got a perfectly normal heart..

…”Bruised and broken from within, sometimes I don’t know how to start to let you in here, so forgive me, because I don’t know what to do, when you look at me, there can be no hesitation, there cannot be a close second to you, I don’t know what to do.”

I’ve been sleeping in so late these past couple of days.. It’s so weird. I feel like I’m wasting most of my day. Oh well- it’s break and all I need to do is read.

I downloaded some new songs by the following:
Waking Ashland
The Honorary Title
I Am The Avalanche
Rancid
The Decemberists
Anti-Flag
Minutes Too Far
The Movielife

I am really getting into Waking Ashland… They’re supposed to be comparable to Something Corporate, which is one of the reasons why I decided to check them out. I just barely listened to a song by them, but I like it. So, we’ll see what happens to them.
As a result of downloading those songs [totally legal, guys.. It's part of my christmas present] I had to delete the academy is.. From my ipod. Yup. And I even got rid of some blink.

Deleting blink’s songs really was hard for me to do, actually. XD It’s amazing how technology has gotten to me [lol, omgz she deleted me from her top eight!] but yeah, I decided that it was “time”. My tastes have matured, and even though I still like blink [and always will], plus forty four is comparable. I guess.

I made blueberry peach cobbler a few days ago and I baked some biscuits yesterday. What can I say- when I’m bored, I end up cooking. And yet all this food I’m eating.. Is not even resulting in me gaining any weight. The most annoying thing in the world.

I guess it’s just me, but when I’m really bored in class, I tend to sift through my other memories. And the California trip is the one that comes to mind so often. I try to remember every little bit of that trip, even though it was so short lived. My synesthesia helps alot here, because it was going so crazy when we were over there, and it helps me remember how it felt and everything.

Forget December…

…”It won’t be better.”

I finished knitting myself a hat yesterday night, I love it so much that I am making another one in another color.

I stencilled a shirt last night and it looks kind of funny because I haven’t heat-set it yet. The color is not dark enough for me at all, but hey, I now have a BR& NEW shirt, haha. But yeah- cutting out the bridges and stuff was a nightmare.

My father told me last night that I’d be a better person if I were into football. My brother added, “Yeah, and boys will like you more.” Boys already like me. I know I’m awesome. I do not need to turn into a tomboy to continue being awesome. They just want me to stop complaining about how they take up my tivo space by recording games on it.

Football really is stupid. I do not get why people fascinate themselves by watching “professionals” play this game. It is really, just a game.

I really want to go to my local yarn store today.. I’ve been wanting to for a while. I’ve been there once, and it was pretty awesome. They have some Rowan yarns there, for sure. It’s a really neat looking store. Just kind of.. Expensive.
I also want to go to the library.

Rant time..

…
FBR is now dead to me.
They dropped Days Away, the AKAs and Kane Hodder. Personally, I never tried Kane Hodder because they are so scene, and Days Away was something I liked, but never quite invested my time in them.
But FBR is now dead to me because they signed Powerspace.. Dear god. Another myspace band made famous. I mean- look at FBR’s variety here..
CIWWAF, P!ATD, Powerspace, FOB, TAI, Cobra Starship, GCH, Forgive Durden, Punchline, The Hush Sound, Paramore, This Providence, Less Than Jake, and Lifetime. Notice that I only like TAI, The Hush Sound, CIWWAF [a little bit.. It's more of a guilty pleasure.] and Punchline.

Oh well, I looked at BUST’s music recs, and I’m thinking of checking out a few bands. I’ll update later as to whether or not I’m going to religiously read BUST’s music recs or ignore it completely.

It’s been a bad day..

… “Another bad day, and all I want to do is look at you and know I’m okay. From where I’m sitting, the shoes ain’t fitting and now I’m walking backwards, and I ain’t going nowhere.. Killing time, just trying to feed my bleeding mind.”

AAnndd.. What did I achieve today? I read 1984 until Allie called, I knitted my current WIP, and I thought of using my new textile medium, but was too lazy to do so. Hmph.

I’m going to Riza’s recital thing on the twenty first and that is really all that’s going to happen in the near future. Oh, and my orthodontist appointment, but that’s on the same day so it’s not that important.

OH! 24, season five is out on DVD now.. The world is now complete. I love twenty four with a passion, and I would die if it were cancelled.

XD I just thought of..
SNAKES ON A PLANE!
Aand it’s straight-to-DVD counterpart..
SNAKES ON A TRAIN!

haha. That was awesome.

But yeah. Tomorrow I am going to dig out my old stationary and get started on the notes for christmas presents. And I will find another set of stationary and use that for the tracklist for the CDs. Then I’ll wrap everything together! =D

Clever is a general word..

… “While always knowing that she’s hurt… And she shows off her skill, right as she takes it all out of her hat you make sure that it’s real, it’s all you thought you had and now you’re scared.”

Our Christmas tree sings traditional Christmas songs in beeps. It’s the most annoying thing in the world. And I am too lazy to get up and walk three feet across the room to turn it off.
I have the same problem going to the bathroom. I’ve even considered getting that empty gatorade bottle and relieve myself that way. But I was too lazy to even go that *shrugs shoulders*

We went to McChord today. Mom is the knitter-who-buys-scarves in our family- so she bought some scarves because they were on clearance. Needless to say, being the snobby knitter in our family who only likes wearing knitted things that she made… Is too lazy to actually make another scarf- so I’ll wear her store-bought scarves. Haha!

*Christmas break has really grown on me.*

“Like with boys, how they have it so easy. How you have to pretend… You don’t notice them… Noticing you. “

I cleaned the house today when we got back. That was about it.

The other day when I went to Joann’s, I bought some textile medium. I’ve been wanting that stuff so badly, and now I have it! I just need to think of something awesome to print onto a shirt. Hmm…

I am hoping that mom will be in a good mood later on this week, so she will take me to Linda’s Knit and Stitch. It has really expensive yarns, the last time we went, but they do have some Rowan/Debbie Bliss/Classic Elite yarns that I really want to try out and feel. So I can make some awesome scarves/hats/whatever.

At McChord, I found the most awesome jacket in the world! And of course- it was sixty dollars. And it was half off. Just my luck. It looked perfect on me! It was really the most awesome piece of clothing that I have ever worn in my life. It had the most awesome vintage flare.. It was a very unexpected jacket to look at, actually. But I looked perfect in it! Runway worthy! =(

We now have Krispy Kreme donuts. I love those things to death, really. Just the glazed ones, because the other ones are weird, imo.

Yay! Dad’s home and I get some food!
Peace out my paninis. [lol, a real signature for an entry.. Doood. O.o]

I will not succumb to your courtesy

… “The things I have to ask you are things I can’t explain… This time I think it could be perfect.”

The power was out most of today [just came back on!] and it went out exactly at eight last night. Needless to say- there was no school today. So one non-student day in January is devoted to us actually going to school and making it up.

Allie and I are both really bummed that there’s no school because we were actually going to get an A on the chapter four test! And we were going to hand out presents!

My solution to the problem for the presents is that..
I’m going to Riza’s recital on the twenty first- I’ll hand them out then. I really hope they’re surprised! But it would be really awkward if there were people there who I did not give presents to that I actually know.. I’m getting Angela something, too. As well as Katie Hedrick. And I know they’re invited! Ooh! I really can’t wait!
But other than that- I’ll have to be patient and hand it out when we get back to school in January..

We went out to eat. Dad got home again because something went wrong and he had to come back, but they are going away again in a few days. At least they won’t be leaving for a while after this one.

Since we did not have school today- there was no opportunity for Lara to assign our spanish project. Anything to get out of work- I tell you.

We are starting the sex unit when we get back to school for health. I’m pretty mature when it comes to these things, but hearing Ms. Huntley say words about that area is going to make me laugh. Because I am immature when it comes to hearing my teacher say words like.. that.

I blocked my scarf and of course- it still curls up! It is more than annoying, but since nobody really knits at my school, they are all so fascinated about the purl side and knitted side. Amazing. So I can’t be embarassed if they do not even get it.
… And if they compliment me about it. Honestly- the scarf took me only a few hours to make it, and it is in the most basic stitch next to garter stitch. At least I can stick my hair up now.

Being an AP writer is just a fancy term for being able to manipulate words better than most people. I realized that while I was writing my essay. It was the same meaning, just different words. It is so weird how one word means the same as another and yet- one sounds better than the other? The whole concept is ridiculous, how you get a good grade only if you manipulate the words just right. [Oh, you can certainly tell that I got three hours of sleep through this entry!]

I think we are going to McChord tomorrow. There’s tons of traffic going on right now.

It’s this huge “storm of the northwest”.. It’s actually on CNN. It’s all over washington. APOCAPLYPSE!

Que alegria..

… The power is starting to go out and what am I doing?
I’m online, writing a blog entry.

There’s no school tomorrow and they announced it today because they are very sure that there won’t be power tomorrow for us to even know. Thanks.

Wasting words on lower cases and capitals

… “We saw the western coast, we saw the hospital, nurse the shoreline like a wound… The veil is ruined in the rain.”

It’s raining really hard. It’s officially a storm, and the “high winds” are supposed to start in about nine minutes. I do not believe it at all. I do not have to.

I have no homework but I still have to work on my presents. That is how my afternoon is going to be.

I got a present today from a friend. It was pretty awesome. I feel pretty bad that I have not gotten him anything, but it is way too late to ask him what he wants without it being too obvious. Surprises are better. The shock value is most of what makes presents good.

I had two tests today and I have another one tomorrow. Way to go. I think I failed one. Oh well. I do not care anymore. Awesome.

Grab a couple forks, hold them three feet apart

… ” and wait for the lightning. Where it lands is where it lands.”

I don’t know, that is a pretty bad subject line, but whatever.

I have finished my mix CD’s, check out this awesome track listing:
1. Sadie- Alkaline Trio [Awesome way to start out the CD. I absolutely love this song- it's one of the best songs in the world.]
2. I won’t be home for christmas- blink [just to fit the occasion]
3. the quiet things that no one ever knows - brand new [I was considering seventy times seven, which is the epitome of brand new, but this was one of their singles that introduced them to the world..]
4. Q- Cartel ["Someone gets up, and then you'll get some X's", the best part of any song. I was considering "Write This Down" and "Say Anything (Else)", but it simply didn't cut it. And, this song is the only song by Cartel that I have maintained a passion for.]
5. no one really wins- Copeland [Because it's so hardcore and dance-y at the same time. Really, I this is one of the first songs that I like from them that I haven't gotten bored with.]
6. golden ticket- Gatsby’s American Dream [I'm still pretty iffy on this one, but I'm not going to go back through the discs I've burned.]
7. is it true? do you hate me?- The Starting Line [this is their demo version of "Nights And Weekends"... I'm surprised that I tend to like this one more than the unreleased track here in the US. [Nights and Weekends was a hidden track on the Japan version of Based On A True Story], this ‘new’ version is alot rougher, but I like that!]
8. for me this is heaven- Jimmy Eat World [Because I truly love this song, still. Even months after hearing it for the first time, I still love it.]
9. dance in my blood- Men Women And Children [because my friends have no idea how bland panic! [OMGZ!!] is, so they need to have better tastes, hopefully this’ll do.]
10. like a movie- midtown [Because it is so great.. I fell in love with this band because of this song a two summers ago.]
11. capital H- Motion City Soundtrack [Such a fun song to listen to... "Capital H stands for hero, and the hero is me!"]
12. understatement - New Found Glory [Also very fun.]
13. the days go by oh so slow- Nightmare of you
14. see you- Saves The Day
15. I woke up in a car- SoCo
16. boys don’t cry- The Cure
17. the first single- The Format
18. 3000 miles- Valencia
19. better off this way- We Are The Fury

But yeah, I’m barely through that set of presents. o.O

First was boring. Second was stupid. Third was pretty stupid. Fourth was pretty awesome [I sat with all my friends because Gallaher let me]. Fifth made the world awesome because..
I GOT A HUNDRED PERCENT ON MY QUIZ!
Didn’t see that coming?! Ooh.. The world is so perfect right now.
“Is it possible for the world, to look this way, forever?”
Sixth was boring.. But weird. We studied the whole period. “Studied”. So, Byron and this dude are talking about kissing in front of me. I only got bits and pieces out of the conversation, I did not want to know much more- but I didn’t think that dudes really talk about that stuff. It’s pretty gross hearing them talk about it though. o.O

Lol, I talk really openly about Christmas presents here because nobody really reads my blog except for Heather. Which is pretty much a loss for the rest of the world- because I pretty much say exactly what’s on my mind. Anybody can read this blog and know exactly what I’m thinking.

I have a test tomorrow in science and I haven’t been paying attention at all. Oh well.

I’ve gotten so careless with school. Even with that realization- I still don’t care.

There’s so much more that I wanted and..

… “There’s so much more that I needed, and time keeps moving on and on and on, soon we’ll all be gone. Let’s take some time to talk this over, you’re out of line… We can’t depend on your excuses because in the end, it’s ** useless.”

Today was definitely a Monday. I was falling asleep in all of my classes, actually.

We went to Joann’s after school today so I got some crafting supplies, which is very awesome. I spent like ten dollars. I always end up spending that much. I finally bought textile medium, and some new acrylics. I can’t wait to start stencilling! I bought some new yarn, for my holiday knits.. It’ll be so cool. I also bought some new jumprings and pin backs because of my Christmas presents.

I now have to construct the songs for my mix CD! oooh.. It can have only like nineteen songs, so I’m thinking..
1. The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows- BN
2. Baby Blue- TEN
3. Q- Cartel
4. A Letter To Elise- The Cure
5. The First Single- The Format
6. Band Sluts [yes! I finally downloaded TSL's geffen demo! =D I am totally in love with this band all over again!]- TSL
7. Ruthless- SoCo
8. Gravity- John Mayer
9. 3000 Miles- Valencia
10. The Days Go By Oh So Slow- NOY [I'm not sure here]
11. Sadie - Alkaline Trio
12. Put You On- FYS
13. Capital H - MCS
14. Pin Your Wings- Copeland [not sure here.. Maybe it'll be No One Really Wins.. Maybe neither, because In Motion is my least favorite record- Beneath the Medicine Tree is so much more colorful!]
15. Little- SoCo [only because it's my favorite song right now..]
16. Lonely For Her -Jack’s [only because it's a b-side that you can't really hear anywhere else]
17. I Won’t Be Home For Christmas - Blink [only because it's the best christmas song..]
18. Surprise Surprise- TSL

Awesome! Now that I’ve written it down, I can go burn it. Very cool.

You get the car..

… “I’ll get the night off, you’ll get the chance to take the world apart, figure out how it works, don’t let me know what you find out. I need a car, you need a guy who needs a laugh.. I want specifics on your general idea, I want see movies of my dreams.”

I’ve suddenly decided that the new scarf I made is awesome. I’ve hardly made any scarves in my lifetime. Really. It’s so ironic how I’ve made like three scarves in my lifetime and I’ve already knitted a sweater. Not much practice, but knitting isn’t that hard to learn if you’re already good at picking up hobbies.

I still need to block this scarf and the sweater I made though. The scarf is actually some kind of natural fiber- it was thrifted, but there was more than one ball because someone did a splice/russian join where they joined the new ball. I feel so cool that I found that out all on my own. But yeah- splice methods only work for natural fibers. And this thing feels like merino wool, which is what I am hoping it is. The yarn is so luxurious.. I love it so much. My scarf is very plain, but it’ll look so awesome. And this means that I can actually put my hair up without being cold/itchy.

Sundays are never enjoyable, really. I have never truly had a Sunday afternoon [during the school year] where I could have fun without the thought of homework. It’s so not awesome. Totally shafted. And I get angry at myself because I have a whole day to do whatever I want, and I cannot even enjoy it!

XD In “Cliff Diving”, Mark sings “Oh my god” in the funniest way.. Out of the three times [dude, estimation. I'm not that weird.] I’ve heard him say it, I find myself laughing. It’s the combination of his deep voice with those words, I tell you.

We’re starting this thing on Romeo and Juliet. Dear god, I keep recalling that episode of Growing Pains, where the dude’s like, “Why didn’t he give Juliet CPR or somethin’? He could’ve at least taken her pulse before doin’ himself in!” Idiots are so funny =D

“You were caught up in a marriage, I was secretly hoping that one of us would die.”

If things go as planned, next week will be just as stressful as this past week. So, don’t feel bad if I’m extremely emo next week- because this is purely for emotional purposes. =D

My essay’s completely done, I think. I stapled it together anyways, and if I missed something - there’s no way I’m removing that thing! Not only does it ruin the staple- it ruins the papers that it tried to bind together. Paperclips are never good enough because they pretty much come off. I could try taping the paperclip to the paper. But then if I took the paperclip off, it’d rip the paper. And of course, I can’t just make the font so small that it fits on one page. Because the teachers would hand it back and tell me that I’m secretly trying to make them blind. Not cool.

On Thursday at lunch, we have now come up with one table that is the boy’s table and the other is the girl’s table. It’s pretty immature and stupid but it gives me an excuse to be obnoxious and silly without sounding stupid. So, the girl’s table is called “Amanda’s Super Duper Magical Girl’s Table”, in honor of me, and the boy’s table is called “The Boy’s Table”. We couldn’t play this charade without bringing cooties into it. Anthony spreads the boy’s cooties around the most. Cameron is kind of part of my super duper magical girls’ table, only because he’s cool, and is not annoying. The only person not allowed on my super duper magicalness table is Anthony because Megan has this thing against Anthony. But that’s for another post.

I can’t complain if I don’t know how

… “I fall asleep in my rented room, it’s not much to talk about.. Last call for societal knockdown, here’s for my endeavors basically based on someone else’s song, melodrama and a bottle of wine yeah, here’s to self-expression, here’s to every one night stand. Bring back the days that fell behind, I’m just wasted for the weekend scene.”

I am too curt with people. I just realize that. I’d be thinking about my day, and my conversations with people, and I’d ask myself, “why did I feel so rushed? Did I have anything to look forward to?”, and of course, that answer would be no. At least I’m the only one who has complained about this.

Okay, so I spent my lunch editing essays. Well, just one. It was Trish’s. She had her paper out, so I was like, “why not? She took the time to get it out, she was anticipating me, I may as well do this for her. It’s the least I could do.” I couldn’t concentrate, so I gave it back to her with only part of it done. I cannot deny it- this new attention is pretty nice. I guess. I feel somewhat famous, and I want to actually impress people now, and prove Mygatt right.

But, here’s my dilemma, once more. People talk to me, who I have not spoken to in weeks/months (for one reason or another), only to ask me to edit their essay. People who I have never spoken to, now talk to me. Trish did not even know who I was. I repeat this: She did not even know who I am. She asked Megan after Mygatt told the class about me, “Who is Amanda ______?”, and Megan told her. I do blame her. I’m sorry- but we hang out with the same people. I’ve talked to her before, I know who she is and have known who she is. If she did not know about my mad editing skills, she would have never even tried to talk to me. That’s what gets to me. And I am way too nice to call her out on it, to her face. That also gets to me.

So, he asked me what I wanted for Christmas again. I do want something, one thing… Beneath the Medicine Tree, by Copeland. I love that record so much, that I actually am looking to buy it, it costs like ten, twenty dollars. I’m not going to make him spend that much on me. I didn’t even bring it up to him. He was even willing to spend money on me, and I told him that he can just get me some Smarties. I’m not going to oblige him to spend more money on me than he needs to. He doesn’t need to spend money on me at all in the first place. I can’t believe my luck.

I’m going to make presents for my friends this weekend, so I can give it to them later on in the week. I procrastinate way too much, so I really need to get cracking. Mix CDs are the way to go, I’m thinking, but I do not know which songs to stick in there. All of my friends [except for a very select few] are mainstream. So I’m thinking of Alkaline Trio, maybe some Brand New, I would stick in a little bit of Copeland, a little bit of Starting Line.. Valencia for sure. Midtown, probably. MCS, maybe. They might like MW&C, so I’ll stick that in there. I’ll put a little John Mayer, definitely SoCo [I Woke Up In A Car is a good start]. Spacepimps would be pretty neat. Oh! Four Year Strong’s cover of Dumpweed would be awesome. The Cure would work, too. Early November [I Want To Hear You Sad would work!]… The Format mayybe.

I’d stick in a warm holiday letter in there.. I’d make some bottlecap brooches [so much cooler than it sounds] and put it in there. Hmm. Or maybe I’m just really ambitious.

And because I’m feeling ambitious, let’s make a list of my weekend craftiness [excluding X-mas presents.]:
1. Knit a new scarf with that super soft merino-ish thrifted yarn. It’s really awesome- and I really need a scarf.
2. Use my new fabric crayons on a shirt to see how it works out
3. Hoodie with my new blue jersey knit/my old light blue jersey knit.. It’ll be awesome if I ever get around to it.

Indoor living in cardboard confines

…”Stands for very little, when safe is just a state of mind.”

I’ve been feeling like a writer today. I mean- two entries.

I need to study for tests tomorrow. I don’t care enough.

Here’s a food for thought: why is it that atheists are considered as bad?
When I was in elementary school, people would tell me about their church experiences. And I told them that I didn’t go to church [so how am I supposed to know?!], and they told me, “So, why do you hate god?” and I was like.. He’s not around- how can I hate someone that you imagine?
How is it, that it is somewhat wrong for an atheist to discuss their views of this thing? Religion is being pushed on me constantly. Everywhere I go- propaganda for religion. Do you see any propaganda at all for atheism? No, the world would see that as offensive. There’d be protests and everything. But the bibles are convieniently placed on the nightstands in hotels, we are forced to say the pledge of allegiance everyday [in which, you have to say "under god". And you can't not say it without being accused of making a scene.], at least every couple of days, I come across “He”. It really gets me mad. I do not have to believe in god- at all- why is it that the world is so orthodox, that we have to believe in god for people to believe we have the right set of values? Shafted.

All the propaganda does, really, is make my beliefs stronger. Haha.