This ride is drifting slowly to the side..

It’s one oh four..

I had to go outside for two hours and garden with my mom. I swept the patio, which has not been swept in forever.. And there were so many pine needles and pine cones.. Gosh, the epitome of Washington.

I made another dress- but it’s practice. So I have to make my final dress, and that is my plan for today. JoAnn’s is having this huge sale tomorrow, where their McCall’s [I think] patterns are a dollar each, and I’m thinking of actually getting some.

I have never used a pattern before, I have an idea and I apply it- pretty simple. I just need to know the techniques and I’ll get it done. Dad said that using a pattern would be easier, since he watched grandma use patterns when he was little [grandma used to make clothes for all of her seven children.. and grandma's sister makes clothes now.. That's the sister who was sick, that I had to visit in California this year] and patterns are essentially, pieces of clothing drawn out on paper, and it has symbols where it tells you where a technique is applied [so it's like, this is where you pleat, this is where you put a dart.. Like that.]

“My Konstantine came walking down the stairs, and all I could do was touch her long blonde hair, and I been thinking, it hurts me thinking that these nights where we were drinking, they never got us anywhere..”

I love something corporate..

” This is because I can spell ‘confusion’ with a k and I can like it, it’s to dying in anothers arms, why I had to try it, heres to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car, when the first you see, may not be a star, I’m not your star, isn’t that what you said? What you thought this song meant? “

Konstantine is what I am listening to right now..

I don’t have much to talk about- so I’m writing song lyrics.

Last night I was fitting myself with my dress, and I found out something- I have finally gained some weight. About a pound or two- I could tell. I should go weigh myself now that I think about it.. This is in real time so.. hold on..
Dude! I gained two and a half pounds! I will probably lose that though.. Because gosh, last summer, I weighed about ninety nine pounds, maybe even a little over a hundred, and when the school year started, it went back down to 88. Amazing.

^^ Andrew is my hero.. Those pics are mostly publicity photos of Something Corporate.
Those just make my long entry longer and actually exciting =O

I’m thinking of joining some awesome crafty swaps. A swap is really what the name suggests- and with crafty swaps, you can get awesome fabric.. Who would hate that? I love the idea- especially since the people who organize these things are so nice. But you have to be approved and there are like, a million rules.. And the whole having-to-go-to-the-post-office-every-week thing. So that kind of blows the whole idea out of the water. A girl can dream..

I have the hugest urge to go to either a garage sale or a thrift store. I want my fabric collection to grow and expand. Even though my stash has conquered a whole corner in my tiny room- that’s beside the point.. XD

Not only do I have that urge- I want to cook something sweet, and we have no sugar in the house. We don’t have Fruity Pebbles either. And such thoughts make me feel like having my eyes rain. As you can tell, we have to go grocery shopping, and as you can tell, we probably won’t go for another couple of days. With those facts- one can assume that grocery shopping is one of those things that are feared in my household, and such ideas should not even be thought about.

i’ve been writing this entry for about half an hour. This is what my summer consists of.

I’ve been reading crafty blogs. These blogs truly fascinate me. People are so talented- they make the most interesting and amazing things, and they write their blogs like it is not a big deal. I hope people don’t think that I’m holy, because I think these people are freaking craft GODS.
.. Then they post their “interesting” fabric menstrual pads.. They’re recyclable. The idea at first sounded really disgusting [can you imagine? You'd have to wash it, these people soaked them in water for a few days, then the "nutrient-rich" wash water was given to the plants..] and then I thought about it more, and I thought it was a good idea. I mean, every female who has hit this stage in their life, first look to pads instead of tampons. Sure, I use alot of them during my “time of the month”, can you imagine how much material is wasted every year?

Now I’m listening to Flypaper by Allister. This is one of my favorite songs by Allister, omg. It’s so freaking catchy!

Well, this is the end of the road. We’ll meet again, I promise!

What’s more than one? TWO!

it’s four fifty one and gosh darn it, today I have eaten quite a bit. I don’t usually eat much in one day and today, I have. By this rate, my ninety pound body should be weighing more by the end of the summer. My metabolism is freaking messed up, so I’ll probably stay ninety pounds for the rest of my life. Which is bad.

I’m starting another dress, which is essentially- a halter top [which fits perfectly, I must add] attached to a pleated skirt.. But it’ll look better than it sounds. I’m getting more confident when it comes to matters such as this.

lalalalaaa
I talked on the phone with allie and we had the most interesting conversation on the phone ever since school let out.

We’re supposed to eat some take out today. You can tell that my days are very interesting. I made some trims for myself, they look like lace since I crocheted them. They look cool. But those three words by themselves don’t have much effect without a picture. Which I cannot provide.

Wow. Did you guys know that Brandon from the killers started this fight between the killers and fall out boy? It started about a year ago, but now Brandon [whose last name is flowers..] is getting all.. Vicious and anti-fall out boy.. XD.

Well, for one.. Brandon considers his band “emo”, and that is def. not true. He is mad at fall out boy for saying that they are emo. I would be mad too, but come on, that’s just dramatic.

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It’s “early” to just about every other person on vacation but heck, nine thirty two is a late time for me.

I found out that the song that I downloaded, is not the song I thought it was. And it was from Jack’s Mannequin! I feel so mislead and so empty.. XD. the song “dark blue” turned out to be “last straw”.. Now I’m dying to hear “dark blue” since I heard a little bit.. Last night, on FUSE, they played a live tape of Jack’s Mannequin in New York.. It’s all over the internet too, but the television makes it more real. The screen is bigger. [Edit- I finally downloaded the "real Dark Blue"]

So far, every night this week, I have run out of time online. I have a limited internet time- three hours a day- and if I hit three hours, the computer kicks me off and I am not allowed to be back on until the next day- just to clear things up. It tells me when I have 15 minutes left, then five minutes, then it just kicks me off. Sometimes I have too many windows open [I have this experiment where I try and open up as many windows as I can at once.. I've gotten up to 35 I think..] and the warning won’t show up. Maybe it gets lost.. ? I think the system is very rude [it just kicks me off!], but it does keep me from being online all day. But honestly, if I didn’t have an internet limit, I wouldn’t be online all day- I’m never that bored.

Lately, all that I have been thinking about is bands. Honestly- I was on the phone with allie for two hours, and half the time I was talking about music. Allie does not have the kind of musical tastes or knowledge that I have- so she was just sitting there agreeing with me. I have very strong musical opinions and I back them up with my knowledge. Not that many people know that I am so musically inclined. I should really talk more like I think. But really, you’d be bored. That’s something I loved about Ryan- he liked the kind of music I did, and it was easy to talk to him about this kind of stuff. I was planning on making him a mix MP3 disk, but then we broke up.. XD

Allie was also bored of my craftspeak.. I was talking about crafting like half the time.. No wonder I spend most of the day thinking- I can’t really talk about crafting to people because it’s just boring for them.. XD

Today is my dad’s birthday. I made him the best card everrr!
Front:
Feliz cumpleaños mi padre! [happy birthday, dad]
and then with the inside, you are hit with this kind of hotness:
=) YAY

Isn’t that the hottest card EVER? It’s something you’d expect from me. Dad got home last night at like ten, so I made the card and I was running around the house yelling YAY!!! XD I had the funnest time, and mom and andy were having fun watching me. It’s beneficial for everyone.

I want to get back into reading. At least my summer books- the MYTH books, maybe some harry potter.

I’ve been thinking about the past summers.. And my summers are essentially, a measurement of how I’m growing up and how my tastes are changing. Last summer, I would have never expected to be into sewing a year later. I’m much less interested in the things I was interested in last summer. I’m sure this is normal- but it’s so weird. I also would not have expected to be diagnosed with ___ and have found out about my synesthesia a year later- go figure.

… Now, if only I could go to Seattle. My birthday is in eighteen days. I want to hang out with someone soon. Allie wants to hang out with me, and that would be fun, it’s just that lately we have nothing to talk about since school is totally over. We are actually wanting to go back to school, at least we’d have something to talk about. Maybe me and Lorrenie can hang out? Maybe we can gather everyone from our girly group and we can all hang out? We’ve always planned these things out but nothing has ever happened.. The only thing that really counts is the halloween party. Which was months ago.. XD Even better- maybe we can all go to seattle? [ok, that one is a little far-fetched, but the ideas written right there..]

Talking to you makes me feel that wonderful sparkly pink feeling
I love knowing that I grab your attention in the hallway..
I wonder if you love that you get mine too..
It’s summer and we probably won’t talk at all right now
but I hope that we will during the school year.
We will be freshman together, and I asked you when we were two
if you were going to the high school
and you did say yes..
Maybe the one event at the end of the ten, we can attend it together
You can rent the special outfit for all the gents
and I’ll make that wonderful dress for much less
But let’s keep away from all those mirrors- we look good enough together, let’s not think of the separate package.

Oh god, I’m more of a teeny bopper than I thought.

Don’t call it a crush, baby

I tried making a pincushion and I failed miserably.. It’s so ugly.. omg. I’m so disappointed.. It’s a simply pincushion, and I couldn’t make it? Yet, I can make dresses, skirts, and shirts for myself? What the heck? It’s ridiculous, and I’m mad at myself. Amazing. Great job, Amanda. *pats myself on the back

Here are my most recent bands that I’ve downloaded [because I'm so cool]:
The Early November [Just as respected as SoCo, I have to check them out..]
Boy kill boy [because I listened to "Suzie"]
Pink Spiders [Because "Little Razorblade" was catchy- and people say the rest of their record is catchy too]

.. And I’m just blogging because I can. There is no effort on my part to make this entry any more interesting than the rest. I’m just pissed. You can only imagine how many sailor words are going through my mind.

The day is nearly over. It’s already five. I need to eat some dinner. But there’s never anything that satisfies me.

I’m starting to realize that I try and keep my synesthesia down. Today I was watching tv, and my synesthesia started acting up, and I put it back in its place, and I realize that I do that all the time. I’m afraid of getting overloaded, so I just make it calm down for a while. It’s hard to explain- my synesthesia is still there, but I just make it be quiet for a while. It’s hard to describe.

Countdown to the disappointment- I’m yours tonight.

Okay.. I broke my promise of writing another entry. It’s ironic- the one day that I post only once, is the day that I promise my “readers” that I’ll update again. What’s up with that?

I’ve been getting into Boy Kill Boy , this very awesome indie band from the UK. Listen to Suzie- that song totally blows me away.

I feel very honest right now. I got so inspired after reading this interview with Andrew McMahon. Honestly- I always get in the best mood after I read something about him. [Gosh, I'm sounding so obsessive right now.. Don't worry- I'm not that obsessive.]

I had a dream last night where I got my hair cut. The last time I cut my hair was in like, February. My hair is starting to pay me back for it- when it is at my ideal length, it doesn’t curl the way I want it to. After I cut it, it curls in the nicest way, naturally. I used this Suave shampoo [I wanted to switch it up and use it on my hair instead of shaving with it.. I'm a Garnier Fructis girl.] and my hair is all soft now- I didn’t expect it.

I am now into Wisting . Wisting is so fun.. I wasted so much time last night getting into it. But gosh, I can only use it on Explorer because I don’t know how to install the button in my browser on AOL yet.. This is my wist.. I just started it yesterday night. lol.

TIME FOR PICTURE SHOPPINNGGG!!

AWESOMENESS! It’s from Pork Chop Girl It’s okay..

“You have a jump in your step, but a rip in your rep.. I just give myself the shivers, and that’s what you get when you think about her.”

I’m trying to diversify myself musically.
” I spend more time in front of mirrors than any gent should, but let’s face it, one on one is more fun anyways..”
.. And I keep getting back to CIWWAF. lol.

There is this interesting website, called This to That , where you put in two different materials that you want to glue together [yes, GLUE!] and it tells you what kind of glue you should use. I found it interesting- even though I have no notion at all to glue together wood to plastic.. XD. Who knew there were so many glues..

^^ From A Dress A Day , yes, I’ve mentioned this site plenty of times before.. but it’s such a great site! lol.

Quickie entry, yes.. But that’s why I AM SO SPONTANEOUS! One day, long entry, another short, you can only be surprised by me XD

Is it possible for the world to look this way forever?

It is nine oh two.

I ran out of time yesterday on the internet and I went on dad’s name and I discovered a great website that satisfied all of my dress needs.. I’ve seen some beautiful dresses on that website, I spent so much time on there…

I’m planning on making myself some cupcake pincushions.. Heck, I need a pincushion. Just because all of my pins are in the original box, and I am starting to lose them. I got those pins a year ago for home ec. [excuse me, family and consumer sciences.] and I didn’t expect them to be put in use the next year. But because they are a year old, they are looking really wonky- they aren’t all totally straight.. [All right, I was looking for a reason to say "wonky".. I am a CRAFTSTER! ]

did you guys know that I have memorized my library card number? Fourteen numbers and I never get it wrong [SYNESTHESIA NEVER FAILS ME BABY!]. Eighteen- if you count the PIN [wow, I've been saying "pin" quite a bit in this entry.. And I can't pinpoint why... ]

I want to post some actual pictures. That I have actually taken. [Not of myself.. Who knows who could be reading this [Lorren, don't try and molest me! XD]]

dude, I’m not one to complain, you know that. but gosh darn it- Amanda comments other people and Amanda doesn’t get comments back! That’s a halfway thing, and halfway ain’t no good for nobody!

Amanda: “Amanda’s hungry”
Mom:”Amanda shouldn’t talk in the third person”
Andy [my brother]:“Who’s the third person?”

My brother is the smartest sixth grader I have ever known.

The more and more I think about it, the more I want to go to Seattle. Laurie said that her mom might take me and her to Seattle on my birthday, but I’m not sure if that will really happen. Committments are always meant to be broken. [Gosh, my blogs are really depressing lately.]

It’s nine twenty one. I want to make myself a dress. I say that a million times and nothing ever comes of it.. I don’t want to waste my new fabric [it is so pretty ! I really need to figure out how to put pictures here, so you can see the radness for yourself.

The kinds of synesthesia that I have:

Letter/number/word- color
word- gender
sight-sound [NEWEST ADDITION TO THE FAMILY! It's pretty weak but dude, doesn't that sound so cool?]
sound-color
scent-color
pain- color
personality- color/touch/weight
time syn
touch-color
Emotion- stress

AWESOMMMEEE! I’ve been planning on writing it down for a while.. I’ve suspected that I have it, but I have finally confirmed it! It makes me tres excited.

I’ll write here later.. It’ll be more exciting.. I PROMISE.

La la lie..

it is twelve thirty six. Gosh, I am bored.

I just updated a few hours ago, I know.

I ironed all of my new fabric.. it took forever. I watched the Tyra Banks Show.. and my brother will not let me live it down. The Tyra Banks Show is one of my guilty pleasures. I have watched it three times, but it is a little interesting- especially when there is nothing to watch. This is how my summer is.

I ALSO WATCHED 24.  I love Michelle and Tony- they should get re-married. But that is just me.

Mom left for a dentist’s appointment and she is getting her prescriptions filled. She left at eight thirty- it’s twelve thirty nine and she isn’t back yet.

Cute is what we aim for is so catchy.. Honestly. “I Put The ‘Metro’ In Metronome” is my favorite right now.. Besides Sweet Talk 101.

I’m getting the hang of putting links into my entries without it being messy. Which is extremely good - because I am so untalented.. ;D

Allie is back! “We are going to hang out so much this summer.”

MY FOURTEENTH BIRTHDAY IS IN TWENTY ONE DAYS!!!!

I’m actually, not that thrilled- but that gives people notice that they should get me something.

Maybe I should have a party. Well, not a huge like PARTY party, but just a little get-together. Maybe with everyone that I hang out with during the year. I don’t know if mom and dad will let me.

I remember last year for my thirteenth birthday, it was such a huge deal to me. I got to wear eyeliner [and you know how much I love it..], Riza slept over and we did our teeny-bopper things.. We read magazines, watched Napoleon Dynamite.. She painted nails, I experimented with my new makeup.. It was so fun. I said that I would hang out with her this year for my birthday. But honestly.. I will be honest here. She’s annoying me. I hate the fact that she puts her boyfriend ahead of everyone else. Sure, it’s natural, but right now, at this age, it’s as natural as those.

It’s twelve fifty.

I should make a list of things I plan to accomplish over the summer:
1. Get out of summer school unscathed.
2. Have a satisfying birthday.
3. Hang out with my friends more this summer.
4. Go to Seattle.
5. Go to St. Vincent’s when it is actually open.
6. Make clothes for myself.. Halfway there.
7. Make at least one decent bag.
8. Go with all of my “traditions” from summers past.
9. Find a way to make my synesthesia benefit me, academically.
10. Educate myself about random things [thank god for wikipedia]
11. Memorize how to make a project.
12. Cook as much as I can, with varying ingredients and methods.
13. Try and enjoy my summer, so I will learn to miss it and look forward to the next summer.
14. Diversify myself, musically.
15. Write on my blog daily.
16. Buy at least one thing over the internet.
17. Write in my diary daily [ANGST!]
18. Gain weight.. I can’t afford to come to school in September, still weighing 89 pounds, or any less than that. I CAN BEAT MY METABOLISM!!!

XD, I am having way too much fun with this link thing.. lol

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Yesterday was so cool- I got out of the house for a whole day. I said I wanted to go to St. Vincents.. But it was closed. The one day it is closed- Sunday - the day I managed to get dad to take me.

We were also supposed to buy new phones- since one of them died, and who knows how long it’ll take until the other one dies.

We went to Barnes and Noble first, and Dad met someone who he used to work with.. He looked like a total nerd. His shirt was tucked in his pants, his pants were high waters, and he was wearing penny loafers. I got a look at his socks.

I went to the section where it talked about Seattle. It had the coolest things in it. After that, I went to the crafts section.. The one book I’ve been wanting, was not there. I wanted to get a ReadyMade magazine.. And it wasn’t there either. At least I got a green tea frap.. And it tasted funny. It tasted like green tea, then it tasted like bread [you know, after it's out of the oven], and then it had this disgusting black taste… It twisted around, it was so gross. I bet that’s an omen for something. There’s an omen for everything.

We went to Goodwill’s, and I bought some new fabric! They had almost no selection in the fabric section, but I went to the bed sheets section and there was so much.. lol. I got a plain lavendar sheet for a full bed, which is quite a bit of fabric. I also got some green fabric, which is pretty ugly, but I can probably use it for something later. I got another one, but I forgot what it is..

If people supposedly wash whatever they bring to Goodwill, then why does goodwill [or the item purchased from there] still smell like other people? This fact was brought to my attention in the most unlikely way. You expect old women to be polite and prim and proper, but this elderly woman told me about this. I was looking at the sheets and she was looking at chair cushions, and she asked me why goodwill smells so bad, I laughed and told her that I didn’t know. She was decent looking, and she was nice to me. But asking those kind of questions, knowing from experience, gets me in trouble. It was interesting- since dad was gone and I was by myself, and she talked to me. I didn’t expect it. She acted like I was her granddaughter, or an old friend, and we only talked for five minutes. I guess you really can’t judge a book by its cover.

We went to the Pacific Fabrics store, which was across from Goodwill, and the fabrics were beautiful. I loved them. But their prices made me want to go in a corner and cry my days away. The cheapest fabrics were three dollars. Their most expensive [that I saw] was ten. Ridiculous.

We went to Joann’s, and I bought two new fabrics. One, is the same as my “pleated” skirt, the other is pink with flowers.. So adorable. I also got some good quality ribbon- clearance for twenty five cents each! I got two. I looked for patterns.. But those were expensive too..

^^ That dress is ok.. I’m just looking to put pictures in here!! That is from Anthropologie

I’ve been blogging almost everyday. That shows how much time I have to waste during the day.

“You are a sellout, but you couldn’t even do that right.”

It takes time to write here, and get pictures to put here.. lol

Here are some blogs that I’ve been reading lately:

thimble

Whip up

Super Eggplant!

… I’m tired of working on HTML. Peace out.

One on one is more fun anyways.

“I think you’re a closet nose-picker”
That is the best sentence ever. Dad said it to Andy this morning.. ROFL.

I want to go to St. Vincents [If you don't know, it's a thrift store], since they have the bestest craft section.. I used to go there a long time ago since I would score the best beads.. But they had tons of notions and I would like to go. Their notions are cheap [ten cents for elastic! You can't beat that!], mom would go there and buy velcro when she needed it. Who knows, maybe they have some good fabric. I know they had some records a while ago.. Can you imagine the craft possibilities??

“I’ve got friends who [la la lie] helped me pull through [la la lie] the spaceman who can’t get high, I’ll get to my girl by July [la la lie]“

I love Jack’s Mannequin. Plain and simple [how many times have I written this?]

Today, not much is happening. I woke up, made myself breakfast [waffles with cream cheese and sugar.. The best thing everr], watched some Mythbusters.. and came down here and got online. I went on Craftster.

Top Ten Underrated Records:
1. Motion City Soundtrack- Commit This To Memory
2. Starting Line- Based On A True Story [one of the best records released in 2005, just so you know. I can't express how great that record is..]
3. Blink 182- untitled
4. Men Women & Children- self titled
5. New Found Glory- Catalyst
6. Any Record by Something Corporate
7. Jack’s Mannequin- Everything in Transit
8. The Academy is.. - Almost Here
9. Valencia- This Could All Be A Possibility
10. Autopilot Off- Make A Sound

1,2,3,5, and 10 were also the soundtrack of the summer of 2005. I’m listening to all my “old” music [the soundtracks of the last three summers] lately, it feels so reminiscent. It’s the nicest feeling. It’s a tan color, it sweeps all over my body. Thank god for synesthesia- I think I probably would not enjoy this music as much as I do now, if I did not have it.

The ideal moments of my summers are listening to my music, in my room with the air conditioner on, with the tv on. Yes, it is a waste of electricity [I've been turning the tv off]. Last summer I would read the newest Harry Potter book- I’ve been doing that ever since fourth grade. I wasn’t into music at all in fourth grade, so I can’t go as far to say “four summers ago..”. I can’t read the harry potter book this summer- since I’ve promised myself not to read it until the new one comes out, so I won’t be anxious and impatient, like I normally am.

I also read those MYTH books from Robert Aspirin. Dad gave me those books a few years ago.. I think it was three years ago. I read them and I liked them. I’m only on the fifth book? I’m not sure.. I’ve lost track of which one I’m on. It’s kind of like harry potter, but then again, it’s the opposite of it. It’s hard to explain.

.. And I bet my summer is going to be full of blog-writing.

So pretty and perfect due to your steady hand

People make the cutest things..
And so do I!

I finally made that dress. and it is so perfect. I love it to death. I expected it to be ugly since it was using one of my not-so-beautiful fabrics, but I surprised myself- the fabric actually complements the dress.

I am currently obsessed with dresses
… And House. I’ve seen like, four episodes, but I am HOOKED. It is so interesting and funny at the same time! .. And there’s this dude on the show with this Australian accent.. So hot.
.. I only started watching it because Lorren watches it.. lol. It happened to be on and I was like “Lorren watches this, maybe I can talk to her about this episode at school tomorrow”, and then that never happened.. lol

It is now twelve-fifty [gosh, I went against tradition.. An i am far too lazy to move the mouse to the top of the page and write it in..]

I’m trying to look at dresses, so I can make one like it. I like looking at something and being able to put it apart in my mind, only to put it back together in real life. It seems so cool, but everybody does that.

I need buttons. And hook and eye closures. My dress closes with hook and eye, but I ran out because I used all fourteen.. I know that’s not how hook and eyes are supposed to be used [ it's only supposed to close the top, like if there's a zipper and it won't be snug enough, so there's a hook and eye on the top.. I just put all fourteen of them down the back, it still looks pretty cute]. Hook and eye closures are fun. It just takes ten minutes to put one in.. It has been taking me forever to put the dress on and off because I’m afraid I’m missing one.. And I haven’t messed it up yet.

I realized that summer school PE starts on the tenth. Or around that time. At least I’ll be able to come home at twelve and take a nice shower. You can’t do that during the school year! AND I can take a whole forty five minutes to “run” the mile.. XD. I am so smart. I am thinking of just not wearing make up to summer school- I don’t look bad without makeup on, I just put it on because it doesn’t make my face feel naked.. XD. [And I can't get rid of my eyeliner.. but it'll come off anyways.]

^^ Is that the most perfect dress? I didn’t make that- Copacetique found it! I love it. I want to make that dress- only with black polka dots, maybe? That fabric is just as thrifted as that dress is.

^^ Snapcrafty makes the prettiest things.. omg. That is the pendant [pretty huge pendant] of a necklace they are selling..

^^ From eikcam, I’ve never heard of the company, but I love that bracelet.

^^ from lime., it’s such a cute ipod cozy. It’s a mix tape.. Mix tapes are so in, aren’t they? At least for me it is. Mix tape = Jack’s Mannequin, Fred Flare.. You get my drift.

^^ From Kissycake, their bags are so cute- too bad I don’t really like purses. I don’t use them- heck, I don’t use a wallet either.. That’s what [pockets are for!]

^^ From Veritas et Pulchra, I have no idea who the designer is, but I love the dress! I can’t imagine making it and actually wearing it, but it’s still cute. It is, however, a hundred and fifty dollars.. People make stuff and sell them online for so much! But the fabric is supposed to be really good quality.. ?

^^ From Mertle and George. I have no idea who the designer is too, and I love the dress, but the hem annoys me. It’s too bright and doesn’t complement the dress at all.. It makes it look like a halloween costume. [It was $275.. and the clearace brought it down to $195. Thank god I have the talent to recreate such a dress, rather than forking out that kind of money..]

I like this one, the side view makes it look better:

Don’t you love those ruffles? It would be really short if I were to buy it.. I still like it though.

gosh, that dress looks really comfortable. It says on the side ‘Döden passar dej’ (Death Becomes You).. I don’t know Swedish, I got that from the website..

That is really nice.. I love these dresses!

.. I hope you loved my pictures that I scavenged around the internet to post…

P.S. I found out that at Phar’s party, Riza almost kissed Cody. Your best friend kissing a dude with a unibrow. Do you think I wanted that kind of imagery in my head? I am going to have that image in my head for the next two years, or until they break up. Then after that- I’ll just make fun of Riza about it. That’s what friendship is all about, remember?

I wish I were religious- so I could go to heaven just like you

Ok, it is now six fifteen.. My first day of summer vacation is nearly over. I haven’t accomplished much today- over all, it was pretty freaking boring. I’ve been watching Is It College Yet? All day long.. Dude, I’ve been watching it since around.. two? I’m not sure. I’ve been trying to clean my room.. etc. I am going to make a lolita dress for myself, since I have the time now. I’ll wear it when I go out, which should be some time soon.

.. I’ve started to realize that if you don’t go to school or have a job, a person gets pretty bored.

I cleaned out my sewing box, and my fabric box.. Gosh, I have scraps everywhere- more than two bags worth. Grocery store bags- okay. lol

Allie called me today, and it was quite a surprise. She has been buying stuff all week for me ever since she got to New York- she’s going to prepare me a basket, which will include a plethora of items. I’m curious of what she’s bought me.. I feel bad- I made her cream puffs for her birthday. I’ve always felt bad about the presents that I have given her. The Christmas before last, I made her a scarf [.. But then again, I used expensive yarn..]- she bought me really expensive perfumed soap.. This Christmas we didn’t buy anything for each other. We just didn’t get around to it.

Edit: it is now tomorrow.. Friday, June 23, 2006
Today I am planning on making that dress that I’ve been planning on making.. lol. I’ve been talking about that dress for months.. You know me, I am the ultimate procrastinator.

I’ve been reading all of these wonderful craft blogs.. These people from assorted places have pictures of where they live. Reading these blogs make me want to travel. Even more so than my original desire to travel. My parents said that I used to hate traveling, so much that we almost didn’t move to Washington. I can’t imagine not having that desire to travel. It’s been hitting me lately more than ever. I think it’s just because I’m starting to realize more and more than I have almost no control over what happens in my life.
“But I don’t want to transfer to KJH”
“Well, it doesn’t matter. You’re the child, and I’m the parent, and I make that decision.”

Summer is the time of the year where I think about myself and my life. It’s just because I have the most time to think about such things. I spend my whole day thinking. I could be watching tv, or even be online, but I engage in really deep thought. My mind is always somewhere else.

I would have to say that I am the most blunt, poetic, and honest in my blogs. I am “kind of” like this in real life, but this blog is where I have the time and energy to write such truthful things. I think about things all day, and I write them here. It’s almost like a diary, but in my real diary [sounds so juvenile to write "diary"] I am much more brutal, blunt and poetic. I try and sound the least teeny-bopper as I can.

it is now nine-twenty five.

There is supposed to be this huge fabric store in Vancouver.. It really set off my urge to go there. I would go anywhere, really. Mariah was born here. Can you imagine, she hasn’t even moved away from here!

I’ll add at least one picture.. I want my blog to be more exciting. Formatted words on a single webpage aren’t that interesting.. Especially if it’s really long.

^^ The best album to hit stores in 2005. Honestly- Kenny’s voice has gotten so much better. I can’t wait until they come out with their new record this year.

This is a long entry- I’ll end it..

Here.

There’s not alot that I feel obliged to share

IT IS NOW ELEVEN! in five, four,three, two, one! YES! Don’t you love countdowns? I DO. It’s like with the microwave.. You step away but you’re still counting it in your head.. FIVE FOUR THREE TWO ONE BEEP!

I made scones for myself this morning.. Gosh, I love cooking. I would be a great housewife someday- I cook, sew, and I am very crafty.

It still hasn’t hit me yet that it is summer. I feel excited about summer, but I haven’t realized that it is summer. It just feels like the weekend. I feel paranoid that homework is due on Monday.. [right kizoko? ]

I am stressing out over my geometry final grade. Quick is really, on vacation. No one has heard from her- she’s gone. So, I am not going to Seattle. I am so mad- it’s a loophole! Over fourteen freaking hours studying for the final!!! So, I guess we will never know what grade we got for it.

“You don’t look like a slut- you just look like you’ll be really comfortable on a hot day.”

Alot of people make dresses for themselves for summer. I would like to do that- I wonder what kind of dress it will be. Don’t worry- It won’t be like really formal. Just a nice, simple little dress. Not those crappy 90s ones either. Just go on craftster and look at their dresses- they are adorable.

The nexus has been down for like, a week? It’s been annoying me because I open a link in my favorites directly to the forum, and I get all this script-speak..

On Warped Wednesday [okay, it is thursday.. Thank god for Tivo!] Josie, by BLINK was on! I’ve been wanting to see that music video forever, and I watched it! It was hilarious!

LALALAAAA

Today was indeed, a day to remember. Today was the last day of school [gosh, I keep thinking I have to be at school tomorrow.. ] and it was sad leaving everybody. People were crying.. I bet everyone was expecting me to cry.. I’m far too sensitive for these kind of events. It hasn’t hit me yet, but I’m sure it will soon. It did a little bit on the car ride home, but that was tiny. Maybe it was just a sneeze.

I went over to someone’s house today- it was so fun, omg. We just got back.. We had a water balloon fight! I smell of tap water..

Lots of people went to waterfront today- I didn’t want to. Partially because of the whole “don’t worry, cops will be there this time”.. Dude, there was a shooting at the last one- do you really think that makes me feel any more secure?

In first period, I got mrs.johnson to sign my yearbook:
“Amanda- What a bright and beautiful young lady! Stay sarcastic- it works for you! =D <3 Mrs. Johnson”
… She wrote “you have a bright future” in Megan’s, and Megan didn’t get a smiley face either..

In PE, there was only me and anne-marie, so we talked for the whole period. I was surprised that we had so much in common. Her family is military, we have the same role in our friendships, Arianna is like Allie.. Gosh. She goes to Maine every summer- I’ve always wanted to go to Maine! I would really like to hang out with her over the summer, she is so nice.

In fashion, we didn’t have much to do. Miss Garrison yelled at the ninth grade girls.. It was amazing. She almost exploded. But I would have too if I were her- they don’t respect her at all.

The assembly was nice- Naomi, Megan Markle, Kim.. they all got awards. It was interesting. Lorren was even in the slideshow!! Logan was in it fifty times, I swear. I wasn’t in there once.. lol.

It all ended, and we all started to get up, and it was sad.. Dessa was crying! I couldn’t believe it! I’m not as soft as you guys think! Ryan was the last person I saw when we left- I didn’t say bye to him or anything [gosh, I get his attention and I give him attention. Is it me that gets attention, or is it just that he notices that I'm looking over??], I said bye to Jocelyn, she signed my yearbook. I wanted Rebekah Temberlin to sign my yearbook yesterday- and she wasn’t there, she wasn’t here either. I remember at the beginning of the year, she didn’t have any friends, so she asked me to eat lunch with her. On the way there, she met Allie Rue, and they ended up eating lunch together. Rebekah has always been nice to me- I wanted her to be there so I could say bye to her! I think she left school early, like Allie and Ariana. I’m not sure.

It is officially summer and it hasn’t hit me yet. I’ll notice tomorrow, I think.

I’ve got the gift of one-liners

TODAY IS THE DAY THAT CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR’S ALBUM TOTALLY HITS THE SHELVES.
Target is supposedly selling it for seven dollars.. Do you have any idea how great of a deal that is?? And yet online, it is eleven dollars. People suck.

Today was the yearbook signing.. Gosh, it was mighty fun.. ROFL

I got the two people I wanted to sign it- Ryan and Adrian. It was pretty rad. I talked to Ryan a little but gosh, it was so awkward- I didn’t expect it to be. It was more awkward to ask Adrian- I wanted nobody to be around as I asked him- only because he is in ninth grade [dude, why is this eighth grader asking you to sign your yearbook? She must like you.]. Adrian called me shorty. He’s too white to call me such a word.. jk.

It was so weird with ryan, here are a few reasons why:
1. He is actually growing. He has hit puberty, I believe. His voice was weird- but I am not sure. He did get taller though, I know it.
2. He actually wanted to carry on a conversation- I couldn’t. I simply couldn’t. I gave him one-word answers. I never thought I would do such a thing- but I did. I amaze myself. He is taking food science next year and dude, Garrison only teaches food science for one period.
“What classes are you taking next year?”
“Uhh, I think I have food science”
“Wow, Amanda, of all people”
“What do you mean?”
“Dude, you are the only person I know who is taking food science! Besides Robby, but he’s a wrestler.”
“Oh.”

I honestly could not believe it- he was talking to me with such enthusiasm. It was such a refresher- really. Partially because, I only talked to him online this year- or I was saying “Hi” to him in the hallways. You can’t put much enthusiasm in a simple wave.

David filled out the most interesting page- it was full of “Hi”s, and in the middle it said “David was not here”. I got him to sign it after I got mine, and after Anne-Marie signed it. It took him like ten minutes to fill it out, it was so funny. I tried talking to him while he was doing it but, gosh, Jimmy was being so annoying. He kept trying to talk to me and get my attention- I’m like “Dude, I’m trying to talk to the guy I like, and you just don’t get it”, honestly, he has a girlfriend- he needs to step off of me. Or at least stop being so man-jealous. Or at least stop acting like that.

I talked to David quite a bit today- it was cool. It was really nice. He’s so funny. He said “woman beater” three times today- all three instances are funny, but it’s one of those “you have to be there” moments. I feel like such a teeny-bopper, I’m not kidding one bit.

I thought today was going to be a particularly bad day- just because I don’t find myself as a social person. I was surprised that I had so many friends- it was nice walking down the cafeteria, and people asked me to sign their yearbooks. I only got three H.A.G.S, and they were at the bottom of a paragraph, which was a personal one. I like how everyone is getting to be more considerate.

“I don’t write HAGS, because I hate it when I get that in my yearbook”

My yearbook is almost filled up. It’s nice to know that- it’s also a very surprising thing to say. I got more phone numbers this year than last year- and I thought I was more sociable last year.

Today was a good day.
But after school I went to JP, and Morgan was there with Dustin and Nollan. They are both pretty obnoxious. But gosh, I hate it when Morgan is around them- she is such a snob.

I’m listening to the new CIWWAF, and omg. Shaant’s voice is the most awesome. He’s so poetic- just read his blog. I want my blog to be like that.

I put one and one together like me and you
You talk to me with such a happy tone
You can’t get that out of an AIM convo
I’m hoping that next year our schedules won’t change
but my schedule for us will almost always be the same.
I want that one class with you- it’ll involve both of my passions.
I’ve got a picture up and it’s almost a year old
“ohmygod,ohmygod, he’s my boyfriend!”
Sure, it’s not too much for us to handle
We’re too young for us to handle much of anything
Everyone knows how much I miss him so
It seems like such a big deal, that much I know
I point it out- I write it down
This is my one, temporary high

Ryan and me are on good terms- this year’s entry is a whole lot better than what he wrote last year [dude, he wrote "have a great summer"], maybe next year, it will be even happier. I can’t wait until next year now. Why does three months have to be such a long time? You know how much I’ve “missed” him, maybe next year, I’ll be able to talk to him like a real friend. This year, it was weird considering him my friend, since I only talked to him online or in the hallways to say a single word. But then again. I don’t want to be excited- I’ll be let down. And you guys have been hearing the same old song for the whole year.

This year has been amazing. This summer has to be amazing. This summer is going to go by as fast as the year did- I guarantee it.

It still hasn’t hit me yet that the year is almost over- tomorrow is the last day.

red shoes match her embarassing hue

My brother is not sure if he is attending Silverdale [read last entry to get this feel]. The school is really big and gosh, it’s confusing. It was weird stepping foot outside of my life, and going somewhere new for once- that thrill was very nice to feel, even if it was just for half of an hour. I could see all the kids looking up at me, they can tell I am older than they are. They also looked at my brother. It’s amazing on how when we were little, we could sense how someone was so much older than we were.

It was very nice, the school looked so much richer than Jackson Park, and they have the funding to show for it. It was really big and beautiful, but it still had that retro feel. It looked new, but I knew it was old because Sol told me [Riza's mom]. I found that place very interesting. This lady talked to me a little bit. I don’t get how a teacher can talk to you like they’ve known you for years, I guess that’s a reason why someone would pursue that kind of career.

There was this boy outside Silverdale Elem., but he was from CK, who is a sevie, but he looks like Ryan, I have no idea why. They are about the same height, and look almost the same from behind. Don’t you love it when there’s someone who looks like someone you know, but you know for sure it’s not them? It gives you this sense of awareness- like you know that certain person so well, even if you’ve only known them for a few weeks or months.

The school is like a huge circle, it was a maze, but doesn’t everything new supply that feeling? It’s weird to think about the first time you have ever been to a place where you consider it another home now. It’s like, how can I possibly not be familiar with this place? I mean, even though it is the first time, I still find myself stupid to even think that this certain place was unfamiliar.

I was on the way to pick up Riza after we went to Silverdale Elem., and I was thinking. I just realized how you can come up with meaningful thoughts, and think about your past and think about what you want to do, and it seems like forever, but from the time you started spacing out to the time you look at the clock, only a few minutes or seconds have really occurred. This trip to Silverdale Elementary has really opened me up. It’s funny- this was a trip that lasted less than thirty minutes, and it’s been so meaningful.If I went out more, I would find this really stupid to say. I bet years from now, I’m going to be thinking about this and I’ll tell myself “Gosh, it was just one trip to an elementary school to convince my brother to transfer schools..”, but at this moment- I found out so much about how people act and how I act. Don’t you just love these kind of moments? Where I rant on and on in my blog about things like this?

Her skin color changes as the season does

Today has been a pretty jolly day- I’ve been the most happy I have been in a long time. But it was in short bursts at a time. I love the way the color changes- I turn into this nice off-white. It’s a different kind of happy- other times it’s this burgandy color when I’m laughing. I don’t know why these colors have to be used..

Laurie is a synesthete! I was surprised but gosh, her colors are so messed up! lol.. Her M is red.. How can that be? It’s obviously purple. XD *wink-

But yeah, it’s amazing. I’ve always suspected that she was a synesthete, more so than everyone else just because she is so creative, and now we can compare our alphabets! I want to talk to her forever about this.

I want to meet a guy synesthete- I think that would be interesting. I want my husband to be a synesthete, because I would never get bored and I could truly tell him everything.

I watched three movies today- National Treasure, Stand and Deliver, and Miracle. I didn’t really watch miracle.. But come on.. I don’t like hockey, why would I want to watch a movie about it? A spanish teacher should simply not assume such things.

So, I had a mini conversation with David today, and it was pretty cool . I love his voice when it gets all quiet- so wonderful and burgandy!

I have this tiny [ not so tiny XD.. I'm not pursuing him- I haven't pursued anybody this year, all right? No tall mexicans for Amanda.. XD] crush on Adrian, this ninth grader. It’s not a big deal, really.

The summer is inching in so close..

My syn calendar is not helping me at all. I see it up to Green Wednesday, and then after that, it’s gray. It doesn’t help because it is not making me feel any closer to summer.
Really, I could go either way- stay in school or enjoy the summer.

The last day of school is going to be huge- not only at school, but after! I have plans. Actual plans.
I am guaranteed at least one trip to Seattle over the summer.. Maybe two.. that is so freaking exciting, you can’t believe how excited I am

I’m going with Riza, Angela, Riza’s mom, Andy, and my mom to see Silverdale Elementary- Andy might transfer over there next year.. Maybe.

Next year I am officially a freshman. Too bad I won’t really feel like it - I’m not really in high school- I’m just considered a high schooler. I’ll still be at the junior high but hey, three words: the freshman dance

I’m thinking of making my own dress for the dance- it’d be cheap and I’ll like it better than buying a three hundred dollar dress.. Hopefully. I have the pattern set out and everything. Okay, it’s not really a pattern, but it tells me what to do. It’s off the internet, and it’s adorable. It’s a lolita dress [get your mind out of the gutter]

It’s just like square dancing- break off two, but leave Amanda alone
“off to pay my fee” because her boyfriend is off doing so
she can’t bear to leave her oh-so wonderful boyfriend.
That’s why she is mad about being late to school- less time to spend with him.

Hours pass, and she still counts the minutes that I am not there

It is now three twenty four, and I am halfway through finishing a one-of-a-kind piece, it’s an original from.. Me. I’m making a hoodie for myself with that awesome tee shirt fabric I got from the near-closed Hancock Fabrics. The material is plain- it’s off-white, but I like it. It’s very cozy- I can’t wait until I finish it. I’m going to try and put something really cool on it- maybe I’ll put a picture of a unicorn on it, WHO KNOWS!

I got my pre-paid card today, and it’s an actual card with my name on it- I’m going to get twenty dollars a month on that baby.

I did my chores already.. But my room’s a mess since I’ve been crafting..
I want to make a skirt for myself, but I have no idea of what it’s going to look like! I’m also afraid of using my new fabric- it’s too new to use.. ? I love my new fabric so much- I’m afraid I’ll mess up my skirt and I’ll lose my wonderful vintage fabric.. Oh, the choices..

Next week is essentially- nothing. I mean really, the biggest thing next week [academically speaking] is that I’m getting my final back tomorrow.. omg.. I’m worried about that. But not academically speaking, school is out. I love how on the last day we do nothing, we have three periods- we have all three lunches for the yearbook signing [who honestly eats that day? Last year I didn't eat at school, I waited until I got home since it's like, ten thirty when we get out anyways. I have to fill up my yearbook!], and then it’s the end-of-the-year assembly , I wonder if I’ll be in it..

But yeah, the last day is the most fun I have out of the year, or at least last year it was. I remember I made my friends get Ryan to sign it [Have a good summer- Ryan, P.S. I don't hate you], I had to act like I wasn’t paying attention. It was stupid!!

There is not much to write about right now- I’ll try and update later if anything big happens.. or if I am really bored.
Off to finish my hoodie!

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And we spent four days at your family’s owned hotel.

today was supposed to be THE day, I don’t know why. This is just a nice way to start an entry besides “it is now eight fifty five”, but that’s what makes you like me?

Today I had no PE. Just because god loves me. Not really- we had to do the PE WASL.
“What are two precautions you can make to avoid an accident while riding a bike?”
“What is the order of which you should exercise?
a. stretch, warmup, cooldown, exercise
b. warmup cooldown stretch exercise
c. Forget about it and go watch tv.”

The third one wasn’t on there, but you know I wanted to write it in.

I finished my WONDERFULLL new skirt. I’m over confident, I know.

Edit!
Alright. I made that ^^ last night. It is now the following day.

I wore my wonderful new skirt to school- it was a hit! I’m happy. I love it- and everyone else does too. Awesome by fifty million. Alot more people talked to me today- Nick actually talked to me.. [I don't want to put those periods to sound like I like him . Because that is the last thought on my mind.]

Speaking of that- David talked to me yesterday. Awesome by .. Sixty million. He’s so cool. I saw Ryan today too, but no conversation for amanda. Nu uh.

http://www.thimble.ca/
^^ That is one of the blogs that I swear by. I’ve just discovered it- but I love it to death.

I want to put pictures on my blogs. So, here it goes.

^^ Isn’t that so adorable??

^^ I love this one to death.. omg.

^^ omg, I love all of those fabrics.. they are from Hancocks of Paducah.. I love those fabrics so much.. And then I look at the price, and I run off to a corner and cry [five bucks for half a yard!!]

Then, the shipping gets me even madder. Seven dollars to ship fabric. These people should die.

Well, I studied on Thursday for two hours, two hours yesterday and an hour and a half today. At this rate- I’ll get at least a C+. I’ve been working on my notes too. This is all outside of class- I study any time I can grab during school. So, I’ve been studying for at least an hour and half yesterday, today and thursday. Ten hours? Amazing.

I can’t say that I am proud of that though- I still feel like I am going to fail. No matter how ambitious I am- I still feel like I’m going to do badly. I seem to get my only pride about my sewing- and I still feel bad about that, I point out what is wrong with it.

http://www.somethingcorporate.com/jukeBox.html
^^ I love soco so much, I’m giving you the opportunity to listen to such an extraordinary band.. omg. Just don’t spread this out on the internet- I don’t want them to get mainstream at ALL.
I’m so selfish, but honestly.

I remember when I was like ten, mom and dad were getting annoyed because I would never look at people in the eyes when I talk to them. That problem was solved for like a year, but I have never been able to really look at people in the eyes when I talk to them. It annoys me. Even direct contact is something I can’t stand. Someone on TV would be looking at the camera- and I can’t look at the TV until the camera shifts away. In class, mrs johnson looks around the room, giving everyone eye contact, but she looks at me and I can’t stand it. I honestly can’t stand it. I hate that about me, and I’ve tried to correct it, but nothing has helped. It’s amazing, you know? I wonder if this means that I do have sensory integration disorder. But then again, it might just mean I’m a weirdo.

Shelley is having this end-of-school party- I should ask mom and dad if I can go. But I’ll need to know more stuff.. XD

I have alot of problems. I just don’t point them out that much when I actually talk to people. I am not a hypochondriac- I know what I do have and what I don’t have [omg, I have cancer!! rofl], but I was reading about Tourettes.. [It's not all about random outbursts, only 15% of people who have tourettes do that. It does have to do with twitching, and I twitch more than people think is normal. My thighs twitch constantly. Constantly. Every imaginable place [get your head out of the gutter] on the body, I twitch. People who have tourettes say that closing their eyes relieves pain that is in their eyes, and I think that too.]

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Sometimes all I do is watch the sky

Seven things to do before I die
1. Leave Washington, go to the east coast
2. Explore Washington / spend a whole day out on the town
3. Go On the Warped Tour
4. Spend a whole day reading
5. Make something spectacular
6. Get an A on a math test
7. Go to a party.

Seven things I cannot do
1. Do anything athletic
2. Do anything with mathematics
3. Be totally sociable with people I don’t know
4. Be serious enough to cry, with someone, in person
5. Not blog for a week.. XD
6. Crafting/cooking/learning about random things
7. Stop wondering about my synesthesia

Seven Books I love
1. The Man Who Tasted Shapes - Cytowic [I actually bought this book..]
2. ReadyMade- How to make [Almost] Everything
3. Dicey’s Song- Cynthia Vogt
4. All of the MYTH books
5. Memory - [ I don't know who this is by]
6. All the Harry Potter books.
7. Senses and perception - [forgot.. again]

Seven Things I say
1. “I am bored”
2. “I wish I got out more”
3. “Can we go to the fabric store?”
4. “Can we go to the thrift store?”
5. “Can we go to the library?”
6. “I do not want to go to school tomorrow”
7. “I am tired”

Seven Movies I Loved
1. Ferris Bueller’s Day Off
2. The Breakfast Club
3. Say Anything…
4. Better Off Dead
5. The Sure Thing
6. Must Love Dogs
7. Wargames

Yes, I am really that bored. I was on a crafty blog- and I found this.
I am considering getting a blogspot account- I hope it’s free. Alot of people with crafty blogs have a blogspot account..

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